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Tuesday, October 27, 2009 @ 4:48 AM EMO-ED WARNING!! THIS IS AN EMO POST SO IF YOU'RE IN A HAPPY MOOD.. PLS SKIP THIS POST IN CASE YOU ASO EMO OR STH LIDAT LAR. FOR THOSE DAREDEVILS BE PREPARED FOR SADDIST AND EMOTIONAL REMARKS this is bad i seriously need to set my priorities right i need to noe what is the limit to "care" and "concern" i need to noe the diff between "pity" and "love" i need to absolutely make my mind & heart shut down before i drop too deep wad eddie said was right my situation scuks im in deep shit wad wende said was even right when girls too shui bian or care tooooo much guys step on ur head and thats why i've gotten my head stepped, used, wadever and the most hilarious thing is even though i was thrown away i still cared and feel for him what i thought was "thats love" or so i thought? why why did he went into emo mode and suddenly offline without a notice my whole mind was in a mess my heart sank i was so darn worried i din even have the mood to do anything like wtf is wrong with me i mus be mad it MUST be pity i do not love him thats for sure 1) i dun like his character much 2) he isnt a Christian 3) it mus be due to my "loneliness" that sucks or rather this sucks i suck woohoo how great and den here i am typing this out like an idiot wuahaha ho seh anyway this post is jus to remind me the diff between "pity" and "love" im almost very sure that EVEN IF he were to ask THAT qn.. my answer will be no and i have decided i will NOT chase aft a guy no way its dumb enough to fall crazily in love and get into a r/s coz i was the one whom made the first move and no way am i gonna be that stupid and dumb agn its almost impossible that anyone would "dote" or "like" me wad more LOVE~ so its like.. wadever lar now the most impt thing is earn $ i bloodly need a damn job like NOW? zzz f/s r/s everything got prob friends having f/s prob friends having r/s prob sucks seriously everytime also lidat when smooth everything smooth when downhill everything crashes down mayb wad jason said was right linn, you have a very weak pt. everyone needs help u help. u worry too much. no wonder u always so stress. mayb he's right im like always stress coz of friend's matter always putting my things in my heart or in the blog dun u tink so? or mayb thats jus my own thinking? ha. its nice talking to jason coz even doh he laugh laugh laugh at least he's serious when he talks to me he understands and he gives opinion so does wende dun see he paikia, ah beng, smokes, etc.. when he cares abt friend he really does care and make sure he follows up thank God for them esp wende he smsed me make sure i go to slp if not he sure K me upside down he will whisper to me in game to make sure im ok he will chat with me in fb chat log even if its 4am and he super tired really thank God for such friends despite knowing them online and onli met up twice or thrice eddie.. he has his own probs he does care he aso worries abt me budden i think i worry more abt him silly de him hais hope he recovers fast ba =/ p.s: all these close guys are dgn guild mbrs budden are engaged, attached or unavailable. thus, i feel extremely comfy with them due to that. and of coz, the lvl of maturity in the way they talk despite their age. yea. u will be surprised. ever since i noe wende i noe things that i nv knew i would noe he's the baddest paikia i ever seen yet the way he wana change the way he wana quit being hot tempered the way he always warn me abt my guarding my heart im amazed someone younger den me GUIDING ME wow seriously thank God thank God my own s/s is falling apart man its like totally..... hais appreciation initiative time management priorities willingness its clashing down and falling aint anyone gonna do anything am i gonna hafta try to plan some outings agn to "survive" or is anyone gonna make the first move am i suppose to plan since im FREE now (or so u think?) even doh my life is mono now it doesnt mean im free it doesnt mean anything seriously its time u do sth why issit always us we get tired too we are busy too we super hate it when we take the initiative yet got rejected as if its nth how do we feel do u even noe did we ever reject u when u rarely planned sth did we ever or mayb we did budden issit for a gd reason sigh seriously this is bad if now we're alr lidat cant imagine when we get attached or have a family or wadsoever la there will be more obstacles much more so are we gonna overcome it tgt or give excuses or blame each other and den walk our own path aft so long are we gonna end in sucha pathetic and ridiculous way i do not want that and so with my last ounce of strength im gonna plan so if u see the effort i put in den make it a pt to come if not seriously i will jus give up how much struggle and motivation we pushed ourselves jus to plan do u even noe do u even appreciate it i duno really this is so darn depressing like totally i feel suckish and felt like so darn screwed this is shit and worst tt baka got into trouble and ask me to help him =,= all thanks to saying my LOUSY sch's name as his outta all sch u actually said MY sch thanks man beloved rach u are the man~ seriously =,= zzz bish till then im jus in emo mode la dun mind me alot of things happened buddy dun wan coffeetalk or no time or no money duno so no one to talk to so sorry all readers wei(3) qu(1) ur eyes bff will not noe abt this kinda things and is a sensitive topic so bo bian hais feel like fcuk zzz LIFE IS........................................................................ i duno? i really wish to say its wonderful its colourful budden in the state im in bottomless pit like wad wende say yea man and yea black pit of valley like wad eddie say ha pathetic hoho yea yea yea to the FEW of YOU~ "wa lau.. linn is EMO-ING AGAIN~!!!" not happy fcuk off la dun think i duno who u are so jus fcuk off before i lose my cool fcukers BYE eddie, cheer up. im sure u can find better girls out there whom appreciates u. max, dun emo le k? i duno wad happen budden jus hope u will be fine. buddy, may u have a smoother ride in ur r/s girl, i noe things arent gd at all for the time being, anything can tell me k? i will be here for u baka, stop smsing me asking me for supper or breakfast. even if so, sms den slp. baka. 2 days str8 u sms and den fall aslp. zzz. bo xim. s-hole. i wan a job and i NEED it p.s: there's a clinic asst at rvm. i MIGHT try it tml to see if got chance. budden that would mean i cant work with cousin in PL. dilemma. >< p.p.s: i mus be feeling like crapped coz yst was one of "those" anniversary. 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Monday, October 19, 2009 @ 3:48 PM none-titled Hmm.. Well.. Actually I seriously duno wad to blog about. My work-hunt is a flung. Worst is, heard that Nic and Sam alr got their 2nd class upper thingy. And I got no notice. Nothing. That meant I have a high chance of not being able to grad this 7th Nov. Ho seh.. =/ Anyway, today was suppose to go ICA to take pp size photo & then change it de.. Budden since they say Monday always busy so I plan to go tml or wed.. P.S: Im amazed how Singapore & Malaysia custom let me thru when my pp pic is my pri 4 pic. LOL.. Anyway, so gotta get it done soon if not I will GG sia.. Btw, am going for a trip in Nov and another in Dec. =) Thanks mummy. I LOVE YOU!! This Nov one is with her colleagues.. Budden since I on "holiday".. She brought me along.. Even doh it isnt far.. Its new to me.. And its shopping paradise.. *Teeheehee* =P Try guessing it.. ;) So, Nov 8th - 11th will be away. And den 14th will be Max's 21st BP. And den Dec 16th - 23rd away aso.. (hopefully this can extend.. =x) Thats all for now ba. Duno wad to get for Max. Probly a watch ba.. Sth he can wear for NS? Rawr.. Duno lar. So troublesome. =X Summore mus find ppl to share cost with me. Probly bro? (budden he dun like Max. =x) or... Eddie? (duno he wana share not).. Jason that side got Wende, Serene & probly Tiff.. Hmmmm.. =/ Speaking of which.. I kinda scared of that BP coz heard tt Im targetted to be sabotaged.. >< P.S: I love this guild. Its very lively and fun. =D P.P.S: Max kept trying to talk to me budden whenever I see him, I duno wad to talk to him. P.P.P.S: I think I can talk to Ray, Jason, Wende, Serene & Eddie more. =X P.P.P.P.S: I think Simon is cute (even doh he trash me in pool) coz he's shy. xD budden too young. =X Got a tendency to join them for pool every sat budden duno leh.. Pool isnt really my thing.. WAD THE..... BFF IS STILL IN HK!!! SHE OVERSLEPT AND MISS HER FLIGHT.. ZZZ.. I smsed her to wish her "Welcome back" and she replied she waiting for next flight =,=" Tskx3.. She dunwan me to pick her up coz she say she's tired.. Sigh.. Today doest feel Mondayish.. Yet it still feels blue. Eddie is down abt BGR things. Jason is upset with work despite being on MC. I feel so moody and nua. P.S: Ermm.. If a guy says.. "Silly girl.. No point to be down with me.." issit normal? Somehow.... When I see one of my friend being negative about my other friend, I feel very sad. Budden sometimes.. The one whom always did wrong, is wrong. Haiss... DUNO LAR. IRRITATING AT TIMES!!! AND THIS IS ONE OF THE TIME! RAWR. Btw, am trying my best to let go & let God. Easily said than done.. Of coz. Budden still, am trying my best to. Jus after talking to someone in msn near twilight... And thinking about wad he said abt "loving myself more".. Suddenly I felt as if Im ill-treating myself.. And den, with that in mind, I din think of him.. And BAM! Wuala~ he just pops in the next day.. Unexpectedly.. There was nth much I can do but to be the "me" I think I am? Hurr.. Wadever lar.. Budden it seriously did affected me coz it was obvious I couldnt conc.. Even buddy say.. "Relax.. Its ok.." Haisss... Pathetic. So pathetic. =/ Budden still.. Im trying my best to let go.. Tough budden nothing is impossible.. Or as Eddie say "impossible is nothing" sounds better. Yea.. I can do it. I can.. I can.. I can.. And I really wish I could. At least, before I set a new resolution for 2010.. I wan to get this over & done with. Sound cruel. But to me, its a 解脱.. Thats how badly hurt & scarred I am. Crap. Its 4.15pm now. Going out about 5.30pm or 6pm for my jab which is at 7pm or so.. And den slack at Starbucks or CBTL and do the cards for respective individuals.. And den head home at 10pm lidat.. Max asked me to wait for him in game at night.. I duno why and for wad.. Budden... Guess if Im in early den I wait lor.. If not, he wait lor. =x Some things to remind myself: - Funan for exchange digi batt - PP size pic - Jason, Wende, Michelle & Max bday card - Flu jab (taking it in 3hours time.. ALONE. ><) - Kei ORD this Friday, celebration or sth? (Plan) - This Wed meeting Hana, Ah Seng & Michelle for catch up dinner. - Tml is Michelle's bday. Duno wad to get for her and pass to her on Wed. (Shop later aft jab) - Nov trip $ so that I can get some stuffs for my close friends - Max bday pressie $ (this is costly.. must find ppl to share.. ><) - This Sunday mayb got surprise bday celebration for Jason & Wende. depends if they free doh. - JOB JOB JOB. (DAMMIT!) - Coffeetalk with buddy Thats all for now I guess.. Probly leave house earlier to shop den go library borrow books den take jab.. Then since jab is near bball court.. Can go over and take a look.. xD Yst saw Yochi.. Budden doubt he saw me lar.. A lil reluctant to leave yst budden nature's call is more impt. =x Ja!~ I love my bball keychain which I bought at Isetan.. It has swaroski crystals on it and even has a warranty de lor.. Power.. =D I LOVE IT!! ^^ linnLOVEyou♥ |
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@ 3:41 PM 2010 Zodiac The history of the Chinese Zodiac is very interesting! It is said that Buddha invited all of the animals in the world to join him for the New Year celebrations, but only 12 animals bothered to turn up. As a great reward, Buddha named a year after each one of them and they actually run in the order that the animals arrived to celebrate with Buddha, starting with the rat and ending with the last guest, the pig. It is believed that those born during a year of a particular animal would inherit some of the good and bad personality traits of that animal. Also, each year is influenced by whatever animal it falls in. The Year of The Tiger begins on February 14th 2010. Drama, intensity, change and travel will be the keywords for 2010. Unfortunately, world conflicts and disasters tend to feature during Tiger years also, so it won’t be a dull 12 months for anyone. The Year of the Tiger will bring far reaching changes for everyone. New inventions and incredible technological advances have a good chance of occurring. For all of the Chinese horoscope signs, this year is one to be active – seizing opportunities and making the most of our personal and very individual talents. Everything happens quickly and dramatically in a Tiger year – blink and you could miss an important chance of a lifetime! Let’s take a look at each animal, their major personality traits and what the prospects are for 2010, the Year of the Tiger. The Rat Rats are charming, elegant and clever. They can be a bit gossipy and prone to being distracted. They’re also thrifty and very good with handling money. Family and close friends are exceptionally important to them. The Rat is charming beyond words and throughout his undoubtedly long life he will always be popular and will have many friends. Forecast for 2010 The Rat may be feeling quite tired and deflated after 2009, which saw him keeping his head down, working and staying out of trouble. The Year of the Tiger is going to be fast-paced for the Rat, which in itself does tend to make them slightly uncomfortable. But it is essential that they go with the flow and seize opportunities and take adventures – this year is going to be important for them. A lot of Rats may have dreamt of travel in 2009 but were unable to take trips either due to financial or work commitments. This year will be so different! Travel will feature strongly for many and if there is dream destination in mind, it may become a reality during 2010. February and March can bring interesting work offers, while June to August and December will bring happy social occasions. Romantically, September and October bring tempting offers for single Rats, while those who are attached will find the summer most special. It is essential for all persons born under this sign to be extra thoughtful and caring throughout the year – an inadvertent remark or gesture could lead to discord with loved ones. Interesting Rat Facts: Zodiac Stone: Garnet Special Flower: Narcissus Best Hours: 11 pm -1 am Season: Winter Horoscope Colors: Black, White, Purple The Ox Sturdy, earthy, no-nonsense – that’s the Ox. Affectionate and easy-going, the Ox can show a fierce temper when agitated. He is neat, tidy, quiet and studious, with a great love of his home. Music can be a great love. Family life and a loving partner are high on the Ox’s priorities. A wonderful loyal friend. Forecast for 2010 The Ox loves methodical planning and everything working out in the correct time. The Year of the Tiger will throw all this to the wind with it’s fast pace and unexpected developments! People born under this sign may find 2010 a challenge but in a good way. The Ox will have to adapt to new routines, delays and obtacles thrown in his way, but he will be well able for any task and may find new hidden talents and personal power he didn’t know existed. Hobbies, relaxing pursuits and friendships will all be beautifully highlighted during the Year of the Tiger and will provide a welcome relief to any stresses he may face. Home improvements and redecorating plans will move forward smoothly with excellent results. Career opportunities will present themselves from April to June, while exciting, intense romantic encounters are likely in July, August and December. An important aspect for those under this sign in 2010 is to be mindful and caring of loved ones. It will be crucial to listen to them and also to accept any help they may offer during this changeable year. Interesting Ox Facts: Zodiac Stone: Aquamarine Special Flower: Carnation Best Hours: 1-3 am Season: Winter Horoscope Colors: Green, Yellow, Black The Tiger Magnetic, passionate and grand! When the Tiger does anything, it’s noticed! Indecisiveness and stubbornness can mar the sparkle of the Tiger personality. On the one hand generous, on the other hand a little mean, it’s sometimes hard to know where one stands with the Tiger. Flexible, honest and truly entertaining, one has a friend for life with a Tiger. Forecast for 2010 Being the Tiger’s own year, 2010 holds great promise for those born under this sign, with exciting developments happening for them both personally and professionally. Some Tigers may be feeling disappointed and disheartened after 2009 and it will be important to leave the past behind and concentrate on the future, which is looking so bright! Financially, everything improves this year for those born under this sign and money-making thoughts and ideas should be fully explored and investigated. With the fast pace of this year for all signs, the Tiger needs to take extra care in planning and thinking all projects through – no rushing headlong into schemes during 2010! Tigers looking for romance will possibly see a friendship suddenly develop into something more personal with exciting consequences. August, December and January will see a very active and entertaining social calendar, but all of 2010 will see fun activities for the Tiger. The Spring months, March to May, will bring encouraging and interesting job opportunities, but the Tiger will still have to make sure he puts himself forward and gets noticed at work. Interesting Tiger Facts: Zodiac Stone: Sapphire Special Flower: Violet Best Hours: 3-5 am Season: Winter Horoscope Colors: Green, Blue, Yellow The Rabbit Cuddly, warm and affectionate are the attributes of the Rabbit. Mysterious and a great party-giver and host, the Rabbit enjoys being the centre of attention once in a while. The Rabbit is occasionally over cautious and can be a bit boring. He is also one of the luckiest signs in the Chinese Astrology chart. Forecast for 2010 The focus will be on the Rabbit’s career and job prospects during the Year of the Tiger, with unexpected promotions and recognition very likely. Travel is also highlighted, with short breaks and spontaneous, fun trips featuring during the late Spring and early Summer. Healthwise, the Rabbit could find the speed of the Tiger year exhausting and it’s important he balance work with rest and relaxation. Promotion at work or in the Rabbit’s career will be sure to feature and they need to act quickly – no hanging back to see what happens! Some Rabbits will be dissatisfied with their current living arrangements and the perfect new home may appear most unexpectedly – they must act quickly and not miss out! Friendships will play a big role during 2010 with possibly one or two friends needing extra care and help. May and October to January will bring special and fun social gatherings. February and March will be significant and fortunate for those looking to change jobs while July and August will be most auspicious for single Rabbits looking for love – an unexpected liaison could result from a work related social event. Interesting Rabbit Facts: Zodiac Stone: Pearl Special Flower: Jonquil Best Hours: 5-7 am Season: Spring Horoscope Colors: Grey, White The Dragon Assertive, energetic and talented are all words to describe the Dragon personality. On the other hand, the Dragon has a tendency to be condescending and tactless without realising it. They generally enjoy robust health and tend to be very successful in anything they turn their hand to. Forecast for 2010 Dragons will find the quick pace of 2010 very much to their liking and they will be keen to spread their wings and look for new possibilities and opportunites. As with the other signs in the Chinese Zodiac, the Dragon must make use of all the openings and opportunities that present themselves during this year. Teamwork will feature strongly and the Dragon will progress further and faster in his career if he bears this in mind. The Dragon’s financial situation will indeed be rosy during 2010 with a possible increase in income as well as a sum of money coming to them during the year. They must be careful to be disciplined about spending and not make too many impulse buys! May to August will be lovely months for socialising with friends and possible romantic encounters. Dragons do need to remember that love needs attention and if it is taken for granted, problems can arise. May, September and November see the most interesting career changes. Dragons need to take time during the year to have a holiday or getaway with loved ones – with such a busy year, they must not neglect those who matter to them the most. Interesting Dragon Facts: Zodiac Stone: Amethyst Special Flower: Sweet Pea Best Hours: 7-9 am Season: Spring Horoscope Colors: Black, Gold The Snake Intelligent and highly intuitive are two of the Snake’s many fine qualities. He makes an amusing and romantic friend with a definite flirtatious streak. When challenged or criticised he can be a sore loser. The Snake is very lucky with money and is fond of the odd bet or two. He is quick-witted and enjoys reading, music and occasionally the paranormal side of life. Forecast for 2010 The Snake likes to make slow and steady progress and the Year of the Tiger will find him swept along with unexpected developments – they need to adapt and keep up the pace. On the career front, the Snake will have quite a bit of competition and needs to stay ahead of the game in order to be in line for any promotions or career advancement opportunities. He needs to seek advice from those who can help and not appear too independent – working with colleagues will pay off handsomely during the year. Money management will be crucial during the Year of the Tiger and with careful planning, they should have little to worry about. Time spent with loved ones, either on a well-earned holiday or at home, will rejuvenate the Snake’s spirit during a busy and intense year. February through April will favor work endeavors and promotion. July through December will offer many opportunies for single Snakes to meet a special romantic partner. Travel looks most likely during March and June through August, with fun and romance well starred. Snakes can be shy and loners, but the Year of the Tiger will ensure they have many happy social events to attend. Interesting Snake Facts Zodiac Stone: Opal Special Flower: Passionflower Best Hours: 9-11 am Season: Spring Horoscope Colors: Brown Gold, Green The Horse Fun, charming and attractive sums up the Horse’s traits perfectly. They love parties and crowds and being the centre of attention. They can also be egotistical, hotheaded and impatient. The Horse is a considerate and protective friend and partner and when in his company, there will always be excitement around the next corner. Forecast for 2010 The Year of the Tiger will be an exciting and lively year for the Horse. On the home and family front, there may be some changes with family members moving in, moving out or relocating to another location altogether. On the social front, the Horse will be in much demand with invitations to parties and gatherings increasing as the year moves on. Health wise, with such a busy year and added pressures, the Horse must ensure that he looks after his diet and gets adequate rest. Otherwise, irritability and heated arguments could arise unnecessarily. Those born under this sign will do exceptionally well career-wise this year. However, they must follow up leads and career openings with vigor in order to take advantage of the fast paced energy of the Tiger year. A word of caution for the Horse – they need to keep a careful eye on their finances as overspending could happen very easily. August through September will bring fantastic opportunities for those looking for love. March through May will be lucky for changing jobs or careers while November and December will bring fun and lively social gatherings. Interesting Horse Facts: Zodiac Stone: Golden Topaz Special Flower: Rose Best Hours: 11am-1pm Season: Summer Horoscope Colors: Orange, White, Yellow The Goat Graceful and optimistic, kind and easy going, would describe a Goat personality. They can also be petulant and discontented, likely to throw the towel in at the beginning of a problem. They can be charming without revealing their true feelings. The Goat is very talented and imaginative and can turn his hand to most creative pursuits. Forecast for 2010 The Goat likes balance and moderation in all areas of life and the Year of the Tiger will ensure that he discovers new aspects and strengths of himself he didn’t know he had! For the artistic and creative Goat, 2010 will bring offers, opportunities and encouragement, leading to new projects and job offers. If they can remain adaptable, open to change and focused, this year could have long lasting positive implications. Study and developing specialist skills is also highlighted for this year. For those wishing to change jobs or find employment, there may be many frustrating moments and it won’t be easy. But then, out of the blue, a job offer or an opportunity will present itself. Be ready! September to November will bring the best chances for work related success. May to September will have outstanding moments for making new, special friends and enjoying the company of loved ones. All Goats need to be aware that the Year of the Tiger is not the time for taking financial risks. If in doubt or worried, they need to be sure to get the advice of a professional. Interesting Goat Facts Zodiac Stone: Emerald Special Flower: Larkspur Best Hours: 1-3 pm Season: Summer Horoscope Colors: Green, Blue The Monkey The Monkey is playful, lively, fun and a quick thinker. They get bored very easily and find it hard to settle down to doing any one thing. The Monkey can also be vain and offhand. They are ambitious and usually very good with investing money. With their quick wit and wonderful sense of humour, they are a great party guest. The Monkey’s life will never be dull and predictable! Forecast for 2010 The Monkey’s energetic nature will resonate well with the energy of 2010 – but he will definitely need to pace himself or he will burn out! Changes on the job front could startle the Monkey near the beginning of the year, but by adapting and staying calm, he should weather any storm. It would be wise to take a well-earned break mid-year as all Monkeys will be feeling the pressure that the Year of the Tiger is putting on them. Family expenses may very well increase this year and the wise Monkey will do a little bit of forward planning and budgeting to ensure a smooth passage through 2010. August to October will shine for romantic encounters and the unattached could possibly find the partner they’ve been searching for. July to November will be the best time to start making moves for anyone who wishes to change their job. All those born under this sign will appreciate the support they receive this year from loved ones and friends. Advice will be well-meaning and helpful; be sure to listen carefully. Interesting Monkey Facts: Zodiac Stone: Peridot Special Flower: Gladiola Best Hours: 3-5 pm Season: Summer Horoscope Colors: White, Violet, Green The Rooster The Rooster is always popular, extravagant and creative. They can be brutally honest and generally like being showered with attention. They are wonderfully loyal friends and also give advice freely – whether they are asked for it or not! Family means the world to the Rooster and they are fiercely loyal to those they care about. Forecast for 2010 The Year of the Tiger will have mixed fortunes for the Rooster, but by staying calm, observant and flexible, the Rooster will glide through 2010 coming out much wiser, stronger and with great success behind him. He will be in much demand for his sage advice and experience and, at work, this will come to the notice of his employer. Many will also decide to go back to college this year or completely change the direction of their career. Travel features quite strongly with the Rooster seeking out adventure, fun and new places to visit. A word of caution: all Roosters must ensure that they don’t overdo things – exhaustion and a depleted immune system will result if proper rest isn’t taken. Home life will bring many joys and will be seen as a cosy sanctuary throughout the year. The Spring months and November and December will be excellent for intimate romantic encounters. March and July to October will be the optimum time for making career decisions or to change jobs. Interesting Rooster Facts: Zodiac Stone: Citrine Special Flower: Aster Best Hours: 5-7 pm Season: Autumn Horoscope Colors: Orange, Green The Dog The Dog is wonderfully hard worker, a perfectionist and someone who loves the small details. He is also a bit anti-social, pessimistic and stubborn. They are one of the most honest and loyal signs of the Chinese zodiac and will always go to bat for a worthy cause. The Dog is a fantastic listener and his advice is usually very intuitive. Forecast for 2010 The Year of the Tiger will be an excellent one for all Dogs with a significant improvement in fortune all year long. They must leave the past behind, for the Ox year was a challenging one, and look forward with optimism and determination. There will still be challenges this year for the Dog, as for all the signs, and it is important that he talk over any potential problems and worries rather than bottling them up. Socially, this is the Dog’s year to shine and many new strong friendships and alliances will be formed. The Year of the Tiger will see increased finances for the Dog with many receiving bonuses or even gifts throughout the year. However, it is important that he takes his time regarding financial matters, checking details and ensuring that he has read all the fine print. May to August will be very significant for single Dogs and all invitations should be carefully considered! September through November will have crucial career opportunities – don’t miss them! Recreational activities and hobbies will also feature strongly, with some able to turn their hobby into their career with great success. Interesting Dog Facts: Zodiac Stone: Diamond Special Flower: Marigold Best Hours of the day 7-9 pm Season: Autumn Horoscope Colors: Silver and Red The Pig The Pig is an innocent, sweet and lovable personality. They can also be quite melancholy(depression or sadness) and over-sensitive. The Pig loves the company of others, and adores parties, gossip and chit chat. They are highly intelligent, but prefer to keep this side of their nature under wraps. The Pig does not care that much for money, but is one of the zodiac signs that is very lucky. Forecast for 2010 The Pig loves activity and challenges and the Year of the Tiger will certainly provide this. There may be additional financial pressure on the Pig this year, but with prudent spending and consideration, this need not be a problem. The Pig is an open, friendly soul and very trusting, but this year he must be wary. It’s possible that gossip may prove too tempting or that he may listen to false advice, causing upset and trouble. Be guarded and careful this year! The Pig must ensure that he follows up all correspondence or financial dealings – to delay or overlook details will prove costly. Short, fun, unplanned trips will feature throughout the year and will be excellent for off-setting any stresses and pressure the Year of the Tiger may bring. Interest in spirituality and self-development will be to the fore and any opportunity to study and explore these should be taken. November to January will provide excellent opportunites for changing career direction or to find a new job. August to December will prove particularly social, with many fun occasions and opportunities to make new friends. Interesting Pig Facts Zodiac Stone: Ruby Special Flower: Chrysanthemum Best Hours: 9-11 pm Season: Autumn Horoscope Colors: Purple, Red, White linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Thursday, October 15, 2009 @ 2:50 PM I wish to lose my memory I seriously wish to lose my memory. Why is this so excrutiating? A long & neverending process.. I just want to end it. And the best way (without dying) is to have my memory gone. Why did all my efforts of forgetting and letting go be smashed so easily? Why did this kinda things happen to me? Why her.. Why.. Why.. Why.. Ok. I noe she is much prettier and such.. But still... This sucks. Seriously. Whole day after I saw that.. My mind was clattering, heart banging, I wasnt myself at all. But I still smiled. Bcoz it was BFF's 21st. If it wasnt, I would have left that very moment. Instead of torturing myself. I felt like fcuk. Or even worst. Just that no other words can explain how much hurt & bitterness I felt. Still, I guess this is sth which no one can find fault with. What I can do now.. Is.. Everytime I think of him.. Or what he requested from her.. Whichever.. All I can do.. Force myself to think of other things.. It will be damn bloody excrutiating I tell you.. Bcoz no matter what, at a certain extend, I will still see both of them. Yea yea.. Linn is in deep shit. Woohoo... Retribution of being an ass in the past.. The best part is that once he mentioned that he's broke & is gg out with his gd friend tml.. And mentioned that probly might hafta borrow $ from me.. I din even think.. Went to my bag and gave him all I have.. (Not alot budden it all I have) Stupid right? Now Im so damn broke. Or rather, penniless. Great. Great.. GREAT!! Linn is just soooooooooooooo smart. And I even made sucha big effort just to get him his choco mint cookies.. Thru BFF.. (even "beg" lor..) and then ended up giving up my own choco mint.. DUMB. DUMB.. DUMB!! Its painful.. Too painful that only God knows. No one can ever claim they know how I feel. Bcoz they will never fcukingly know. XQ: sometimes things doesn't go with what we wanted? i understand that u feel that u are very foolish, but there times that people are way more foolish then u? it's nt abt we wanting to do that, but its our emotions and feelings controls us? that is why people say when u wanna do something, u might wanna think twice? but of course.. there are things we do nt know what will happen next? so dun blame urself k? aniwae girl i think what you need now is time and give urself a chance to do something u wanna do the most? dun think abt the past lerh.. what has happen has already become a past tense liao.. so why nt we move on with our life without letting the things in the past interfere us? I always tell my friends. Do what u wanna do, but leave no regrets behind. but also of course for everything we must take the first step out and see what happen next.. dun run away from the problem by telling urself u cannot slove. but instead tell yourself i must at least try to slove the prob.. no matter it's slove beautifully or very ugly at least u learn something from it and u slove a prob. wouldn't that be better? I know.. I know.. I know.. BUT. Easily said than done, aint it? Im so darn screwed that I landed in a pile of mess of myself. How great? Its raining.. Yea.. At least the sky can rain.. Even if I wana cry till I go blind.. I couldnt. Bcoz I feel so pathetic myself.. The hurt is drowning me.. I dun have the will to even get back on track.. How deep a valley am I in? I have no idea.. And to make the matter worst.. Im still spiralling downwards with no intention to survive.. p.s: How I wish I can cry.. I guess I will feel so much better.. Seriously.. How did I get into sucha shit? Even my bro dino I still have feelings for him. He noes he asked for her name & probly, hp no. .. Budden he said its ok wad.. Why did I care.. So long liao.. 2yrs liaos.. You still like him meh? And I was like.. I din care? I DIN CARE? For pete's sake.. I do wish I din care, ok? I rather I din care.. I rather I din.. When I woke up this afternoon.. I din have a good slp at all.. After all those mugging since 2weeks ago and den without slp for 48hrs and den exam.. And den after exam out the whole day till 3am before I getta slp again.. (Which make it 3days without slp coz of BFF's bday).. And den surviving from early noon till 3am again~ (coz BFF's party ended at 2am).. Way over my limit.. Yet.. I get this kinda shit. How great huh.. Hoho.. And den.. It made me thinking.. How come I can freely let the rest of my ex go.. How come even a very heavy crush I can let him go.. BUT WHY I JUST CANT FREAKINGLY LET THIS DUDE GO?!! It sucks you noe. For the BIGGEST and LONGEST time ever! It just sucks. So much so I feel its dumb typing out. Whatever. Now BFF should reach HK le.. May she be safe and that she enjoy herself.. =) Will probly welcome her back on Monday.. Till then. When can I ever come out of this sorrowful nightmare..? linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Monday, October 12, 2009 @ 11:22 PM No booster Sad. After Hana left to look for her fiance at around 9pm.. I left for the bball court instead of heading home.. It was an impromptu thingy.. No idea why.. But always, when Im at the court.. (Despite alone).. I really felt so much better and happier.. =) Budden.. I went there for a "chance" of seeing "Yochi" or probly.. Ron. (coz he MIA on me.. baka~) *Yochi = that tall, dark, gong gong de eye candy. (I gave him tt nickname de. coz his initials is YC) =p *Ron MIA coz I was asked to cfm if he's gg for BFF's 21st which is the day aft tml ONLY!! & he MIA on me.. Zzz.. Anw, none of them were there.. Budden nvm. It was alright. =) Saw a few small rounds of matches.. Yada yada yada.. After the lights went out.. I left for home.. Otw home was smsing Eddie.. Or rather, replying his smses.. He told me dun stress.. Ask me take a break.. I told him that I went to bball court is to take a break.. and... IM STILL STRESS!!! And den he say dun worry.. relax... and I was like.. HOW TO?!!! RAWR... Yada yada yada.. Reached home. On com. Signed in msn. First person whom talk to me.. Ron. =,=" Anyway.. He's gg for BFF's 21st unless sth cropped up.. And wanted to pass sth to him tml budden he mentioned he's gg JB.. So.. Owell.. Shall pass it to him on BFF's 21st den.. (Provided there is extra stock of Girl Guide's Mint Choc cookies) Felt a lil stupid "buying" from BFF and den giving it to him.. Just coz I rmbed he likes Mint Choc. Zzz.. He is soooo in luck that I actually THOUGHT of him lor.. =,=" Lucky dude. And so..... No booster for me to tong till 6am later.. Hohoho.. Owell.. Whatever. I will do with what I can den. Side note: It hurts MOST when your closest friends disappoints you; esp when they dun even realised themselves doing so. Till then. I feel screwed. Like totally~ =/ Im amazed my bro actually said that M is so darn ugly. WUAHAHAHA!! P.S: He mentioned that E is the only one very handsome budden his attitude SUCKS. BIG TIME. [P.P.S: Im very neutral coz I dun look good and my attitude sucks too.. So I wun say much. =)] linnLOVEyou♥ |
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@ 4:22 PM Final rush Here I am at coffeebean (coffeebean & tealeaf = CBTL) with Hana.. She is currently taking a short nap beside me.. Both of us are like "taking care of each other" coz we both noe we both din have gd slp for a week +.. Or rather, its more like restless & so-not-peaceful slps.. =/ Anyway, I just have this feeling suddenly.. & that is.. "I see no future in us.." What some ppl say was that "Hope you two can be tgt by the 17th nov (his 21st BP; Birthday Party).." But I dun see that as a possibility despite "Nothing is impossible.." Its like.. 1) No eagerness to talk 2) No sms 3) Way too laid back & always laugh it off 4) Too much sweet-talking 5) Character dun match despite similar interest Even doh I have said and made it a point to move on.. Still, this is not the way to do it. Yup. Not this way. What Im currently looking for in a r/s is longterm.. To put it short. The last one & final one if possible. Which is.. Future husband. Its tough. Of coz. But still, at this age, after "seeing" & "going thru".. Enough is enough. I dunwan heart & mind to clash and come up with wadsoever excuse and den lead myself into deep shit. No more regrets.. No more.. I hope. Not sure why the heaven Im typing this budden I jus thought after blogging this I will be able to concentrate better.. Here I am trying to study my best.. There my mind is flooding with that stupid guy.. =x Its irritating.. Anyway.. I suddenly realised that one of the "bonus" in a guy which "turns me on" is.. Apart from taller den me, apart from sportish like bball, apart from TKD, apart from musically incline... I realised... I realised... I realised!!! Being a photographer or an inspiring guy or even, just a very doting guy.. aso "turns me on".. Thats why I like older guy.. (Much older for some) Coz they treat me like xiao mei mei and I like tt feeling.. =x Probly coz all my life I've been doting my bro? =,=" So.. Yah lor.. Budden of coz.. Love is love. Just that a hint of doting in it is a SUPER!! bonus.. xD P.S: So far no one really noes what "action" I like ppl to do to me right? Muahahaha~ P.P.S: Everytime I think of tt action it reminds me of Phil sia.. Only he did that to me.. Sob! I miss him. =X Whatever.. Sot liaos.. =,=" Probly I came to this (additional bonus) coz I saw my friend's fb.. All her pic taken by her bf.. And then that video on "Kiss-Because Im A Girl" (long time ago video budden pop up agn sometime this session) So.. yup. =) Okie lar.. Back to studying alr.. Hana's up. Im trying to keep awake.. Gonna be a hell-load of time till BFF's 21st is over man.. Linn's Plan: - study till 2am/3am den slp till 6am wake up. 7am leave for sch. 9am-12pm exam. - after exam getting extra batt for my Apple (digicam's name) for BFF's 21st & aso for future use - after that gg to slack & nua or shopping with Hana - meeting BFF at Coslab for eyelash perming at EastPoint @ 7pm - after that nua or walk around talking abt her "BIG" day tml.. - go home and do up her glamorous (hope still braincells to design) Bday card.. - send BFF happy 21st on 12mn sharp - slp early if possible coz the next day gonna wake up early to go BFF house to help out 14th oct: BFF' exact 21st - pack clothes to change for BP at night - prepare make up - reach BFF house at 1pm+ - accompany her to salon to do her hair - meet gee (Angela, BFF's cousin) to help in make up for BFF - prepare this and that - change in BFF house - down to E!Hub to prepare for the stuffs - GONNA POOL POOL POOL & SING MY WAY THRU... (like I got so much strength sia) LOL.. - help welcome guest and take pic (doubt I will have so much time to play afterall =,=") [ suddenly I wonder if Ron is gg.. Colin too. haha.. sounds a weird mixture.. ] - hopefully the event will end slightly earlier coz her BP is form 6pm - 2am.. a lil crazy coz she next day 8am+ hafta check in the airport for her trip to HK. (SHIOK RIGHT!?!!!) rawrr. Thats about it I guess. P.S: Sebas, Ong, my bro & Kei should meet up first den come over or sth ba.. Guess they will plan among themselves.. Really time to go.. Ja!~ Wish me BEST OF LUCK for my exams.. Rawr!! I got my hairstyle I wanted for 14th Feb, Valentine's Day cum Chinese New Year 2009.. Commments please? Thanks o.. =P Things to note: 1) See if it fits my FAT FACE.. 2) I dun have blonde hair (budden if its dark colour will it still look nice?)  No. 1 style (I find this curl softer budden if darker duno will still look nice not lehs.. =/)  No. 2 style (This looks a lil tighter curls budden the hair colour darker and face colour quite similar? =S) p.s: so far Hana says No.2 is nice.. and BFF say No. 1 is nice.. rawrr!! Guys.. help me out.. Please please pleaseee... =P linnLOVEyou♥ |
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@ 12:22 AM Met up with some guild members Sorry for the ultra huge gap of silence from my blog.. Was preparing for my paper this coming tues.. Anyway, went to AMK for bball today. Felt a little ps coz ask my *friends to travel all the way there like a lil... =,=" * = Sebas, Ong, Kei & my bro Thank God Sebas was able to drive.. THANKS BUDDY!! xD Hmm.. Saw Max, Jason, Eddie, Ray & Wenjie (whom was too shy to say hi. lol.) Hmm.. was kinda ok lar.. Din really getta play much budden did sweat quite alot coz the sun was blazing hot. Din really talk much too lar.. Had match which Jason, Max & Ray took the initiative to join us from the st soccer area.. (Despite Jason said he actually wana come see see only.. Ended up play coz Ray backout) Hmm.. Was alright.. =) Went to fetch Eddie at 4pm lidat.. Can get along rather well with him lar.. Budden yea.. a lil boostful.. =x P.S: Maybe some guys are lidat? In the guild like got 3 liaos, including Eddie. =x Anyway, suppose to meet up with Vesire this sat budden seem like it din work out. So probly meeting those few dudes again this sat for pool/snooker.. Duno if bro wants to go with me.. =/ P.S: Suddenly thought of sth.. What Max think of me. WUAHAHAHAHA.. Eddie: "you arhh.. fast sia.. can defend quite well.." Jason: "active.. friendly.." Max: *no comments yet* Ray: *no comments yet* WJ: too shy. LOL!! Guess I will get back to studying le. Just wana say I "met up" with my guild mbrs le. LOL. And that........................ Sometimes.. I just hope that ppl should take initiative & not stay in their comfort zone.. Because somehow or rather, if you really do care/bother.. You will think of us and plan an activity.. Owell.. Wait till one day we both snap.. Or just heck care.. Will you den regret or realised that all along we were the ones planning & organising.. All you did was to say "yes" or "no" or even better.. Din reply. What are we to you, really? Are all those.. "I love you girl" or "I miss you girl" from the bottom of your heart? =/ Whatever.. Treat it as I dun have enought slp for the past 1 week and is feeling crappy. WHATEVER. Looking forward to BFF's 21st sexy bitchday this Wednesday at Kbox.. xD P.S: My dear BFF.. Cant I not wear dress? =/ PLEASEE~~~~ >< A hug would be nice in times of despair or disappointment.. Problem is there is no one whom will do it on his/her own accord.. I guess.. linnLOVEyou♥ |