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Thursday, August 30, 2007 @ 1:01 AM seriously. wad i blog or do is none of ur business coz u dun even give a damn abt my life. lets see wad to post. todae mood not good. damn stressed up abt exam. zzz. medical micro is damn sickeningly tough. ARGH. few things happen todae. mostly bad lar. haa~ saddist. sumtimes i reali wonder am i always the one doing wrong things or issit others? or issit that ppl are jus being "act clever" when they know nuts? like they study engineering and wana teach you about bio? like they never learnt swimming and say that swimming is easy to pick up? or like.. they never even get into a relationship before and wana act smart by telling you "oh.. its lidat one lar.. blah blah blah.." or or.. they share with you other people's experience and say that "actuali i think hor.. he/she damn dumb.. ownself duno how to think ar.. bla bla bla.." like.. wtf? too "eng" liao ar? own business dun mind.. mind other ppl's business? for goodness sake lar. lang kiang tio hoh! mai keh kiang.. (ownself clever ok liao. dun act smart) oh yah. forget to say.. if anyone get offended... den im sorry. but im not saying names or pinpointing.. coz too many ppl out there liaos. hehe. budden im the devil lar.. as always.. HURR~ so wadever. i noe wad im doing can le. =) cant wait for friday. haha. even doh im not wearing nice nice liaos.. budden still... hehe~ =P nice having friends around you who care. wheee... feel like at least u are not alone. =)) yst cousin talk with me in msn. super funny. crap and talk abt flip phone. den change topic to exam. den change topic to slackiness. blah blah blah.. damn crap lor. LOL. oh well.. hope she's fine.. poor girl.. SAYANG~~~ =)))) *ur fav multiple chin* =P todae slping late again~ will be mugging at home "with" sam n hana.. haha.. mugging at individual home.. jus that all staying up late and den tml meet earli to chiong all the way. must chiong liaos.. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!! wwhooosshhh!! xD sad sad. vesire babes all cant make it for 4th sept.. guess i not gg liaos.. unless kor wana accompany me.. hehe.. he say he will take leave to pei me.. wooo hooo!!! budden i feel bad lehh.. if he pei me = he cant see his aiai for 1 day.. gosh.. =/ owell... tml den see how. last min meeting up with kl n laypeng tml. jus for dinner. heng ar. jus nice after the "study hours".. if not sam n hana sure !@#$%#^ me.. LOL. reali.. next time tatami n selin should join us.. sam VERY FIERCE ONE..!!! strict arr... >.< i scared scareddd.... hurrr.. oh yea.. miss tatami n selin.. hug hugg!! we've all been busy with studying n own stuffs. =/ after exams and after tatami come back from aussie... we go eat home-made ICE CREAM!! yahhhoooo~ jia you for mmby. if can morning we pray liaos den go in tgt for the battle~ GANBATTE (issit lidat?) coz i always spell "GAMBETEH!". lol. oh well.. wish to go cine the shop soon. wana buy NEWS the cd. omg omg omg... aarrrhhhh~ >.< ok. time to stop. study study study. 5 more chap before 1 book finish. haha. saddist. another book haven touch. good job~ (as wad alvin always say) HAHA! miss miss!! hope friday u can make it dude. =) off i go. oh yea. coz of sth / sumone.. i suddenly feel like not gg for that outing. LOL. im a saddist. hahahahahhahahahahahahhaa.. =D and i'm lovin it! pa la pa pa pa.. =P u are a cockroach and im bygone!! i noe you LOVE me.. WUAHAHAAaa~ =D linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007 @ 11:40 PM inspiring email + give up on him. first and foremost.. thanks selin for sending this email to me. it reali helped and blessed me alot. jus nice i was feeling down. and i read it. made me feel much much much better. loves! next.. this is COPIED from the email selin sent. i found it very motivating and inspiring so i post it. hope you will be blessed too. =) lastly.. GOD IS GOOD!! and i love my GOD. You made me feel that in life.. things that we go through.. there is a purpose in it. and that during tough times.. these are the times where You are moulding us.. so that after the storm.. we will be much stronger and better person. to share our own experience with others.. to be a living testimonial to others.. and to be a light to shine.. to carry Your glory wherever we go. i will sing of Your love forever.. i will praise You even when im down.. i will always look upon Jesus.. for You are faithful and always welcoming me with open arms even when i've let You down.. thank You Father.. thank You for this life that You gave me. i will live the best out of it. Amen. once again.. i wana thank selin again. =) --- INSPIRING EMAIL --- A NEW PERSPECTIVE I sat with two friends in the picture window of a quaint restaurant just off the corner of the town-square. The food and the company were both especially good that day. As we talked, my attention was drawn outside, across the street. There, walking into town, was a man who appeared to be carrying all his worldly goods on his back. He was carrying, a well-worn sign that read, "I will work for food." My heart sank. I brought him to the attention of my friends and noticed that others around us had stopped eating to focus on him. Heads moved in a mixture of sadness and disbelief. We continued with our meal, but his image lingered in my mind. We finished our meal and went our separate ways. I had errands to do and quickly set out to accomplish them. I glanced toward the town square, looking somewhat halfheartedly for the strange visitor. I was fearful, knowing that seeing him again would call some response. I drove through town and saw nothing of him. I made some purchases at a store and got back in my car. Deep within me, the Spirit of God kept speaking to me: "Don't go back to the office until you've at least driven once more around the square." Then with some hesitancy, I headed back into town. As I turned the square's third corner. I saw him. He was standing on the steps of the store front church, going through his sack. I stopped and looked; feeling both compelled to speak to him, yet wanting to drive on. The empty parking space on the corner seemed to be a sign from God: an invitation to park. I pulled in, got out and approached the town's newest visitor. "Looking for the pastor?" I asked. "Not really," he replied, "just resting." "Have you eaten today?" "Oh, I ate something early this morning." "Would you like to have lunch with me?" "Do you have some work I could do for you?" "No work," I replied. "I commute here to work from the city, but I would like to take you to lunch." "Sure," he replied with a smile. As he began to gather his things, I asked some surface questions. "Where you headed?" "St. Louis." "Where you from?" "Oh, all over; mostly Florida." "How long you been walking?" "Fourteen years," came the reply. I knew I had met someone unusual. We sat across from each other in the same restaurant I had left earlier. His face was weathered slightly beyond his 38 years. His eyes were dark yet clear, and he spoke with an eloquence and articulation that was startling.. He removed his jacket to reveal a bright red T-shirt that said, "Jesus is The Never Ending Story." Then Daniel's story began to unfold. He had seen rough times early in life. He'd made some wrong choices and reaped the consequences. Fourteen years earlier, while backpacking across the country, he had stopped on the beach in Daytona. He tried to hire on with some men who were putting up a large tent and some equipment. A concert, he thought. He was hired, but the tent would not house a concert but revival services, and in those services he saw life more clearly. He gave his life over to God. "Nothing's been the same since," he said, "I felt the Lord telling me to keep walking, and so I did, some 14 years now" "Ever think of stopping?" I asked. "Oh, once in a while, when it seems to get the best of me. But God has given me this calling. I give out Bibles. That's what's in my sack. I work to buy food and Bibles, and I give them out when His Spirit leads." I sat amazed. My homeless friend was not homeless. He was on a mission and lived this way by choice. The question burned inside for a moment and then I asked: "What's it like?" "What?" "To walk into a town carrying all your things on your back and to show your sign?" "Oh, it was humiliating at first. People would stare and make comments. Once someone tossed a piece of half-eaten bread and made a gesture, that certainly didn't make me feel welcome. But then it became humbling to realize that God was using me to touch lives and change people's concepts of other folks like me." My concept was changing, too. We finished our dessert and gathered his things. Just outside the door, he paused. He turned to me and said, "Come Ye blessed of my Farther and inherit the kingdom I've prepared for you. For when I was hungry you gave me food, when I was thirsty you gave me drink, a stranger and you took me in." I felt as if we were on holy ground. "Could you use another Bible?" I asked. He said he preferred a certain translation. It traveled well and was not too heavy. It was also his personal favorite. "I've read through it 14 times," he said. "I'm not sure we've got one of those, but let's stop by our church and see." I was able to find my new friend a Bible that would do well, and he seemed very grateful. "Where are you headed from here?" I asked. "Well, I found this little map on the back of this amusement park coupon." "Are you hoping to hire on there for awhile?" "No, I just figure I should go there. I figure someone under that star right there needs a Bible, so that's where I'm going next." He smiled, and the warmth of his spirit radiated the sincerity of his mission. I drove him back to the town-square where we'd met two hours earlier, and as we drove, it started raining. We parked and unloaded his things. "Would you sign my autograph book?" he asked. "I like to keep messages from folks I meet." I wrote in his little book that his commitment to his calling had touched My life. I encouraged him to stay strong. And I left him with a verse of scripture from Jeremiah, "I know the plans I have for you, "declared the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you. plans to give you a future and a hope." "Thanks, man," he said. "I know we just met and we're really just strangers, but I love you." "I know," I said, "I love you, too." "The Lord is good!" "Yes, He is. How long has it been since someone hugged you?" I asked. "A long time," he replied. And so on the busy street corner in the drizzling rain, my new friend and I embraced, and I felt deep inside that I had been changed. He put his things on his back, smiled his winning smile and said, "See you in the New Jerusalem." "I'll be there!" was my reply. He began his journey again. He headed away with his sign dangling from his bedroll and pack of Bibles. He stopped, turned and said, "When you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?" "You bet," I shouted back, "God bless." "God bless." And that was the last I saw of him. Late that evening as I left my office, the wind blew strong. The cold front had settled hard upon the town. I bundled up and hurried to my car. As I sat back and reached for the emergency brake, I saw them... a pair of well-worn brown work gloves neatly laid over the length of the handle. I picked them up and thought of my friend and wondered if his hands would stay warm that night without them. Then I remembered his words: "If you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?" Today his gloves lie on my desk in my office. They help me to see the world and its people in a new way, and they help me remember those two hours with my unique friend and to pray for his ministry. "See you in the New Jerusalem," he had said. Yes, Daniel, I know I will. --Author Unknown --- end of inspiring email --- [ before i read this email ] i wanted to type reali negative and sad remarks. coz i saw his friendster and my heart reali shatter. BUT.. thank God i saw the email selin forward.. i felt so blessed. and im not so negative anymore. =) [ after i read the email... ] this is wad im gonna say. but in a nicer n better way. i saw his friendster. my heart sank. even doh his status is single. but the girl whom kept sending him comments and etc.. is in a relationship. comments like.. "2 more days to see u.. miss you so much.. no more big doraemon to hug.. miss my doraemon.. so sad you sat den book out.. i wana hug my doraemon when he comes out.." etc etc etc.. can i not think like wise..? its reali hurtful. i said before.. that i will wait for him till he is outta NS.. and now.... even before he even POP.. he's (i think) attached again.. i feel like giving up. reali.. even doh i've reali tried so super duper hard not to think of him.. i still do. it jus hurts. its onli 1 mth + ever since we parted.. and those miss you comments started jus 1 week after we parted.. wad does that means?? at first when i saw those comments.. i thot it was like friend friend.. but..... now i reali wonder.. friday after paper.. should i hang out with the rest? should i go for vesire photoshot? should i even go out? even doh i feel much better.. but i still feel hurt. i duno. wad am i to do? lost. and confused. wana cry. yet im holding back. knowing that crying for him isnt worth it. but i reali wana cry. wad am i to do? at first.. after we part.. i thot that because he wana be strong.. so he din msg me even if i msg some gd nite msges to him. or i thot he was busy and such. but now... i duno.. i thot he was reali strong and firm to not even miss me n msg me anything.. i reali reali thot he was trying to forget me or sth.. and sebas, hana.. said that he was cruel.. i din think so.. i said he was busy and such.. and now... i reali wonder if he ever like me.. things that i did for him.. things that i never did in my whole life.. planning surprises.. learning how to make cake.. stay up super late jus to give him earli morning call next morning despite hectic days and such.. to think that when he had chicken pox.. even at the "danger" of getting shingles (coz i got chicken pox before).. i stil went to his house to take care of him.. bought food lunch n dinner for him even doh i hafta rush assignments, report and school in the evening.. for 2 whole weeks.. my bus fare exploded.. i paid myself.. got up earli to prepare.. carry labtop + charger + lecture notes.. bla bla bla.. doing many special design cards for him.. folded sooo many stars.. learn how to design shirts... he likes psp.. i even wanted to get for him even doh im tied at hand.. help him clean n pack his house.. (even my room aso nv pack so nice).. fetch him back from sch (when still studying).. fetch n send him off for NS.. gave him my hp for NS even after break up.. guess i better not say more. dunwan to leak out more salt water. enough for now. im tired enough. 6 solid hours study is wearisome. i've delete pic to do with him. all... except for his folder. not yet. bu she de. dun ask me why. call me stupid. call me dumb. call me an idiot. but i jus cant bring myself to delete it. i will cry. reali. and badly. all along... i love fireworks.. but because of fireworks.. reminds me of him.. sumhow... im reluctant to see fireworks now.. when he is in NS.. i went out with my family to watch fireworks.. i record every single fireworks i see. i din even watch the actual one... onli focus on taking good video of it. even ask my dad n bro to help record using digicam n hp.. so to let him see... all in all... i recorded 3.. but i din get to show him... because before i could... i was dumped. ha. not in the mood to do anything. sumtimes i reali wish i can jus leave my nick in MSN as per norm. so that ppl wun ask me Qs.. coz i duno wad to say. and everytime when im not ok den they concern. so why the heaven must i reply them? so wad if they care and concern? it feels fake. owell. wadever. will end here. time to study. bye. its the real goodbye now. even if one day (if there is ever this day) you come back to me and say sorry. i will be the one who will say sorry to you.. and ask you to go back.. because you are the one who gave up for me in exchange of your own relaxation and "so-called" happiness. i wish you all the best with may.. and i reali hope you two will last. so as not to "regret" dumping me. but if you ever got dumped of boycot.. i will feel sorry for you. but im not so stupid as to let myself get a chance to be hurt by you ever again. i will NOT trust the things you say ever again. esp those sweet honey words. because after you did this kinda things to me. i noe that all those words are all rubbish. and vesire babes... (esp jiao n hunn).. all those things he say in maple.. they are all fake.. because if he reali do "LOVE" me.. (action speakds louder than words).. he wun do this to me. to everyone. pls dun mention him infront of me. not that he is loadsome. but i dun wana think of him ever again. even doh it will take kinda long for me to forget... but one day.. i will be a stronger and happier yanlin. wish me all the best and ask me to stay strong!! (even doh i noe noone will. coz based on previous posts.. haa~) linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Friday, August 24, 2007 @ 1:22 AM loves chiisanakainouta super nice song. loves. anyone got the song can send me pls? anione wana buy me proposal daisuke movie? =p loves yamipi. copyrighted by www.montanasky.blogspot.com : 小さな恋の歌 - Mongol 800 いつしか二人 互いに響く 時に激しく 時に切なく 響くは遠く遥かかなたへ やさしい歌は世界を変える ほら あなたにとって 大事な人ほど すぐそばにいるの ただ あなたにだけ届いて欲しい 響け恋の歌ほら ほら ほら 響け恋の歌 Without us realizing, it is already echoing between us Sometimes intense, sometimes sad It echoes distantly This gentle song changes the world Look, the person who is important to you is right beside you I just want to reach only you This echoing love song Listen, Listen, Listen to this echoing love song and people, this song is super nice! u have to trust me for once, lol ^^ it's called "A little love song"~~~ it's the song tt starts playing when u visit my friendster now ^^; first heard it on prodai but it din leave a deep impression on me i duno y, weeks after finishing the show i start to listen to this song n now i tink it's super nice~ actually in the 2nd epi of prodai kenzo left a line on the blackboard saying tt the person who is most important to u is right beside u *cos he's sitting nex to rei tt time* and i was super touched by tt line haha, but i din realise it's the lyrics from this song~ even doh i wun wana dance when i listen to this song.. but at least it made me feel much better and relax-er.. LOVES LOVES!!!! ENJOY!! =)) linnLOVEyou♥ |
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@ 12:06 AM i wish & dun wish to be 21.. vexed. burdened. sian 1/2. wish & dun wish to be 21. wish : freedom (at least better den now) dun wish : old liaos. nidta ownself work n dependent. its jus a overnight to study. summore all girls. and its STUDY~ mus they say this n that n such. wadever la. now dun even have to freaking mood to study. feeling down coz of stress; which added to weight.. worry about sebas thingy.. worry about the friendship thingy.. worry about financial thingy.. and they added unto it. wadever. din wana tear. but still did while sms-ing hana. life jus sucks so badly. mayb its a good thing? they spoilt my mood. so mayb i will not have appetite to eat. yeah. tat might do. ha! no mood to do anything. chaos. linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Thursday, August 23, 2007 @ 2:06 AM guess no one reads my blog.... guess no one reads my blog coz no one sms or cheer me on. HAHA! owell.. cant depend on others but myself huh? well well well... or maybe everyone is jus SOOOO busy. like me. wadever. have been having late dinner with hana and sam.. plus coffee / heart-2-heart talks with sebas.. aargghh!! reali hate exam periods. zzz. everytime sure have coffee talks / earli supper to destress. owell. dammit. aniwae.. hana "doll" my eyes todae in coffee bean.. i feel like an "item" or "animal".. coz we are sitted at the side.. with transparent piece of thing jus beside us. and there were kinda alot of ppl outside.. -.-" aniwae.. hana used dark brown liquid eye liner n her thick mascara.. i din take a pic of it. haa~ aniwae.. sam say it was better den my own pathetic eye liner and mascara.. so we both ended up at singma and got each a liquid eye liner.. exactly same brand and colour as hana.. jus that the price is different.. we had a 10% discount.. haha!! bleah. owell.. hope i noe how to use... =/ heng can be "erased" by wet tissue.. so.. yea~ they were so excited abt the last day of paper.. haha. budden i wasnt so as looking forward to it.. coz even doh, yes, it will be my first time wearing nicer clothes n etc.. budden..... im fatter le.. WUN LOOK NICE. shit. zzz. should i starve for one whole week? hmmmm.. or starve until gastric and fall sick?? so i can stay at home and study.. means..... save money.. and not eat out.. WOO HOOO~~ mayb i should. =x lalalala.. off i go for now. busy typing in IY summaries into microsoft words den print. wheee~ chaos. i cant imagine how the heaven i dreamt abt him. and that he is with sumone he likes.. owell......... linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Monday, August 20, 2007 @ 11:55 PM fatty yanlin. im so fat!!!! shit man. hate hate HATE exam periods. and den go study with hana.. everytime she tired = order sth to eat. OMGG!! hana.... u not fat. i fat arhh!! after exams must reali go exercise liaos.. everytime say liaos den no motivation.. =/ or alone so sian.. haiss... saddist. =( i cant seem to get a grip of myself. so outta control. going haywire. sumtimes i reali wish to be sick. at least i wun eat coz no appetite.. or get scolded for nth or get hurt (feelings).. so that i will be sooooo moody till dun feel like eating. i reali reali reali hope i can.. anyone wana "jue jiao" with me? LOL. or tell me u love me or sth.. so i will be like "shit.. he/she like me." LOL!! if its a she.. mati lor.. i think i will think n think n think until even slp aso cant slp. hahaha!! OH OH!! or say alot of bad things abt me. or say im so damn fat dat im sucha disgrace. or wadever you can think of lar! jus make me moody. haha.. at least i will still study even doh im moody. mayb jus a lil reluctant.. haha~ oh well. FATTY YANLIN. FAT FAT FAT!! ggrrr.. nowadays taggie damn quiet. =x guess everyone busy. haa~ oh well.. super full now. tried mc-cafe double chocolate frappe (small).. den ate a student meal shared fries with sebas.. and den im bloated like i ate buffet. SUPER FULL lor. wth. duno wad the fries n burger made of. wa lau eh.. full until tummy POP out. shit man. zzz. so aunty like. YUCK! disgusted with myself. dunwan eat mac or BK liaos. everytime study (outta 4 days 3 days eat BK/mac).. wa lau eh. not fat is sai one lor.. shit. no more fast food lar. PLEASE~ reali feel like digging my throat n make me puke. i feel so fat n yikey. so yucky~ puiii.... (sick) todae hana abruptly asked abt him n me (previously before we break up wad we quarrel abt n etc).. she accidentally blurt out lar. coz she n her bf a lil prob. oh well.. she forgot tt i din reali wana hear his name.. so she suddenly kept mum. and it felt even heartache and awkward for me.. ouch. till now i still feel the pain.. =( ouch. last time.. excuse for me to put on weight is coz always go out with him eat eat enjoy life.. now?? single. no more excuse to enjoy life n eat alot. so its time to slim down and eat the RIGHT FOOD. sigh. last day of sch eating suki sushi buffet. the following day is vesire pre-anniversary suki sushi buffet ALSO!! god. im so dead. and money fly fly. =( time to save up = eat less. gd gd. jia you oh. (half heartedly) coz.... im oredi half dead. or rather.... 3/4 depressed.. so to be half heartedly "jia you" is good enough.. no one cheer me up or sth. so............ hais. wadever. bye. I AM FATASS YANLIN. HA~ (sarcastic) -.- linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Sunday, August 19, 2007 @ 9:49 PM none. ermm.. duno wad to blog. just noe that im very tired. everyday less den 5 hrs sleep. no more pretty me. (like i've ever been pretty lidat.) =.=" owell.. getting fatter. everyday onli eat sleep study. shit man. AARGHH!! lidat de hua.. last day of sch howw....??!?! must jian fei larr... ssheessshhhh.. hack lar. drink alot of water and mayb bring biscuit to eat. cannot eat fries n BK liaos.. HANA!!! dun sabo mee!!!! you can afford it.. i cant.. $ fly fly.. and grow fat fat.. dunwan!! omg. exam period reali best time to put on weight. shit. i feel so damn fat. omg. zz. love gg out with sebas n kl. LOL. went bedok inter to makan after watching rush hour 3. damn funny. budden a lil short lar, the duration. aniwae.. its nice having fried carrot cake, fried oyster, bbq chicken wings and a coconut each.. super yummy and chilling.. of coz.. sinful too. even doh i noe sebas n kl both can afford it BIG time. i cant. -.-'' budden i nidta DESTRESS u see.. owell. me n my rubbish. excuses. LOL. OI! long time nv eat can. =X wadever. crap. so far... i "let" 2 person "down".. both are GUYs. budden both are aso normal guy friends. haha. and both are under the same catergory. LOL. aniwae.. both asked me out. budden i not free. haha. if not no mood. or too busy.. PAISEH! next time lar. aniwae.. both of you.. i will see u in sept wad.. dun worry lar. unless you yourself bo eng (not free).. den too bad lor. haha. am still trying hard to forget him. have been "putting" his things away from my sight.. left the watch. eeyore and my fav jacket. i din realised tt the jacket was the one he bought for me.. until my mum said it was nice. and den BAM! i rmb it was an exchange gift from him. oh boy.... damn. i like tt jacket. even doh onli $5. haha. damn suit me lor.. chey ba~ actuali i got alot of jacket. 2 from mum. (1 bro 1 mine) budden bro dunwan so become mine. 1 is i buy the same design as him except diff colour. 1 is dad buy from converse i haven wear coz bu she de. (speaking of the jacket tt same design.. the sling bag tt i like aso cannot carry le.. coz same design as him aso.. jus tt diff colour.. it was the first present i got for him....... oh well.. double damn.) HAIS. BLAH! wadever lar. gotta go study soon. sian 1/2.. tml's lab theory test aso duno wad they gonna touch on. lecturer onli say wad lab pract Qn.. wa lau eh. aso nv go thru or say properly. liew~~~~ 2nd yr leh. SHIT LAR. RAWRRRR.. jia you le. yanlin~ and oh! i got a new signature n initial.. however.. both are not activated yet. haha. jia you yanlin!! GO GO GO!! strive for ur dream!! esp ur THAT dream...... dream house. rmb tt! JIA YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!! xD go go gooo~!!! i must transform! as in jian fei n be more feminine. LOL. everything is possible! LOL. i jus nid motivation. so.... those who saw this post.... PLEASE sms me.. and ask me jia you!! dun be lazy!!! you are doing this as a friend and for ME!! =P hehehe. my no. is 9er9liew1ling5liew. =D muackkk!! buais. (this part is an add on.. jus saw frienster so.... yah.) omg. DEREK!! you from small shuai ge become HUNK!! omggg... http://www.friendster.com/photos/7321767/1/181466449# BIG WOW!! loll. thats all folks. chaoss~~ todae mood not say especially good. but i just dunwan to think about sad stuffs. i will be wearing my "singlehood" pendent tt i lost 2 yrs ago, yet again.. finally its back on the shelf.. haha.. may it guide me thru and pull me thru as it has always been.. will wear it as soon as im 50% prepared to let him go. JIA YOU YANLIN!! GAMBATEH!! YOU CAN DO IT DE!! you must believe you can. JIA YOU!! and....... many thanks to rui en. you gave me much motivation. LOVES!! linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Friday, August 17, 2007 @ 12:27 AM seemed like he have sumone new. seems like there is sumone new in his life. well.. if sumone were to be waiting for his return from ns.. if he recieved SO many comments from tt person.. well.. i guess that is it. i din even went to his friendster to see. but that person came to see my friendster. and linked me thru him. oh well... thus i jus browse browse and saw wad i din wana see. alright.... this is so bad. =( everytime exam period sure got shitty things happen one. fark man. now i suddenly hate the name april. thats because it seems like THAT person name aso uses her birthday month as a name. fine. ok. i noe im being stupid and bitchy abt a "month" name. but... u dun understand how i feel. so unless u also got dumped and that ur "still-is,lover" had a new girl, and her name aso is a "month" name.. den come talk to be abt it. if not.. jus shut the hell up. not happy with my blog? den dun see. find it very vulgar and sluttish and bitchy? den dun read on. wad for? to see how shitty my farking life is? to see how rude n crude n vulgar i am? yea? den fine. i am who i am. so think wad u wan. say wad u wan. i dun care......... not anymore. all i ask from my friends is... not to mention him anymore. PLEASE~ i noe u all care but.... no. pls. i will reali reali REALI appreciate it. its damn hard. damn hurting. damn unbearable. so stop torturing me.. i reali appreciate it. the word "ns" will be a trauma to me. a "phobia".. a "i-dun-wana-noe-anything-abt-it".. and if possible. i dun wana see ns ppl. coz it jus hurts. and yet again. unless u got dumped by a ns men.. and got said by cruel and hurtful words... den keep all the things u wana say to urself.. or when im in a better mood. but i rather u jus kep it to urself. coz if im in a good mood and u bring THIS up. im so gonna sink deeper. im reali curious. curious abt my feelings. curious abt my behaviour. i realised. whenever im with my friends.. i can be free and smile-able~ but whenever im alone with -him-.. i tend to show my true feelings and mood. i duno why. but that is always the case. mayb bcoz he is a christian. thats why there is a linage btw us. even doh i noe that its not those "so-called" feelings.. but its jus.... different from ppl who noe tt i got problems. its like........ even when im reali happy and is smiling and luffing around with jokes and silly things... he will still gimme the "look" of concern and "are you alright?".. i noe that its not those "so-called" feelings.. but rather.. brotherhood feelings.. like.. "do u wana share with me your prob? i noe u arent reali ok even doh u are, on the outside or onli for the time being." sth lidat... its reali hard to explain. and i guess he is spiritaully more mature than me. thus, he gave me a sense of... "dunnid to hide" kinda thing.. when im around with him.. only. (means.. alone.) p.s: he din send me home or neither are we those close friends. its jus a reali normal, average friend.. thus..... it amazed me when i had tt kinda "dunnid to hide" feelings. and i onli realised it todae.. even doh i wasnt reali sure why i was like... "down" suddenly or sth whenever the rest got off. but.... it was onli todae.. that i realised during the journey back.. he was like hinting me tt he knew i wasnt ok.. mayb im thinking too much? but its like too much of a coincidence.. and its jus weird. oh well.. that aside. thank God for sebas n kl. its always when slightest thing happen to me.. they will noe. like.... i jus sms them if wana have dinner or earli supper or sth.. (as per normal) but they end up still knowing that im like.. different. sth wrong lidat. i duno how they know even doh i was like per normal.. haa. aniwae. thanks guys. =) todae in mac aso saw my sec 1 friend. norman hafiz. a super nice guy. chat with him n sebas n kl. ended up we all know each other thru sec 1 same class (me n kl) and den in same CCA (hafiz n sebas).. so.. yea. den norman even pei us go to 7-11 (11pm liaos).. den aso accompany us to the busstop to wait for bus 89.. he send me n sebas up the bus den walk back home with kl.. coz they stay QUITE near each other but never even see each other after we grad.. which is like 2 years? LOL. life...... aniwae.. i guess i should look ahead and jus live the best i can. now i reali wish HE remove every single pic that has anything to do with me.. like.. pic which i took for him.. pic which he took from my friendster/thumbdrive.. pic which reminds me of the times we spent tgt... etc. and of coz.. remove those comments that i wrote for him before. i dun even dare to see my comment (the one that he wrote for me).. vaguely remember the contents but i noe some are sweet words.. however..... i still am afraid. i dun wana cry. even doh i still feel for him. but....... i dun wana cry..... for him... not anymore. even the email folder that i had specially for him... i din even dare to open up to see the contents...... hais. call me cruel. call me weird. but i reali wana seal up my heart. its back to icy heart again.. why must he defrost it and warm it up and den frost it back up again? this time round... he frost it up and threw it on the floor. goodbye...... to love. (i should have bought beer to "cheers!" to goodbye love~) ha. thank you -YOU- for letting me noe that being a Christian is sucha wonderful thing. thanks hana for bringing me go "SHOP" for new clothes and make me spend GOOD money on GOOD clothes. LOL. no lar. thanks for accompanying me when im accompanying you. thanks selin for the little note. thanks tamm for caring even doh you urself is down.. thanks to all that cares. ha. everytime when life seems better...... something bad crops up and pull me down..... linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Sunday, August 12, 2007 @ 12:58 AM i reali aint ok. i reali aint ok. shit. im so lost. i dun think i cant fall aslp. decided to surf net n watch mobtv. bro say im mad. coz less den 8hrs of slp. and for the past 3 days.. i aint slping well. not at all. owell. shitty. i reali nidta quieten down and shut my mind. how i want to tell hana how i feel. how i want to tell tamm n selin how i feel. how i wish to tell babes how i feel. but i guess i shall jus keep mum. mayb next time. see how. i wana settle myself down first. AND.. tml im gg to see tt irritating cousin. gosh. GOD BLESS ME. Amen. no appetite even doh im having minor gastric. off i go. bye. linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Saturday, August 11, 2007 @ 11:55 PM i saw his friendster.. todae went out with vesire babes. was kinda okok nia. coz duno why the mood / atmosphere a lil..... owell.. hope everyone is fine. tried my best to liven up the atmosphere by getting each of them a pair of shoes.. (NOT TO SENT THEM AWAY - as sayings always say -.-") but jus to cheer them up and aso to let them choose wad colour they like n etc.. sooo... yup. =) and of coz... i will be designing for them.. and i'll hafta rush.. if possible.. finish all 4 by tml evening / night. coz exams are DAMN near. so must chiong liaos. poor hunn.. dunno wad happen to her. super moody lidat.. >.< hope she will be fine soon. aniwae.. her shoe next week den can get.. summore mus go all the way to bugis.. >.< poor thing.. -will stop here for now- jus saw his friendster. looks like he had a new friend / sth lidat. kinda close i can tell.. hhmmmm.. it jus make me feel very........ heartache. actuali... im glad enough that...... at least he din delete all the testi tat i gave him.. and at least i had one pic of me in his photos..... if i see nth (means all remove / delete)... i think thats it.. if i haven forget him by then.... and i see that kinda thing happen... hallelujah to me.. =(( if i had kinda forgotten him by then (which i duno when)... den i jus hope i wun be so affected by it. im so not feeling ok now. how i wish i can logout msn jus lidat. but i cant. there are ppl chatting with me. how i wish i can jus slp jus lidat. but i cant. i hafta help add designs unto my bro's shoe and bath.. how i wish i can jus loss my memory by banging the wall.. but i cant. i noe if i did that.. im letting the devil take control of me n let him destroy my life.. how i wish i could run away.. but i cant. and i dun wan to. bcoz when i fall and rise up again.. i will be a stronger girl. a stronger lady. a stronger me. a stronger yanlin. (hurr.. i hope so.) thank God for a slightly positive mindset despite my downcasted feelings and emotions. when ppl around me are down. i will try to help. i will try to care. even if im in the same boat as them or if im worst den them.. i wana be there for them. esp my babes and close friends. coz other den my family...... he.... is gone. and im left with u all. (not that u all are spare tyres.. but i reali treasure u all MUCH MUCH more den ever..) plus, God. BUT...... i duno why. i haven have the "face" or courage to face jy n the rest. i duno why. i jus nid time to sort my freaking life out. GOD! pls. i beg You. at least make me smile and have a lighten heart whenever im with my friends.. i dunwan them to worry.. and i wana be a joy and luffter person to them. i wana bring joy to them. not sorrows. not sour-face. not black-face. i pray that You will give me the strength and peaceful mind. Amen. thank You father. thats all for now. chaos. when i saw NS mens coming back from camp todae. i thot i saw him but i aint sure. my heart raced. i flustered. my mind was in a mess. i kept wanting to look for him. but my heart was so painful that i decided not to. however.. i STILL ended up looking for him at a distance. but to no avail. sorry sebas. i lied to you that i wasnt looking for him even when u asked me if i were. i jus couldnt help it. he was so precious to me... and i thot i were, to him, too. but i guess i wasnt. and esp now. not any more. he gave me up in xchange of his own leisure time and happiness. saying all my bad points and etc and not giving me ONE chance for me to mend my ways or change myself for his sake. even if i asked / requested / begged for it. he did not give me that ONE chance despite all the many chances i gave him. not that i wana compare or argue about it.. BUT................ wad more can i say? wad more can i do? but to heal slowly. and be there for him whenever he nids me. sign off. with tears. linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Friday, August 10, 2007 @ 12:31 AM HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONG!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BRA!!! =* HAHAHA!! 17 liaos worr.. wah sehh.. time reali flies... >.< todae's cake was a success.. (it wun be so successful without jiao's and shell's help. and a lil from bro here n them.. hehe.) even doh i put lesser sugar le.. the comments were a lil too sweet still. aniwae.. grandma (mum's side) and 3rd uncle's family (mum's side) came to watch NDP on tv tgt with us.. so they gotta try the cake too.. of coz my cousins get to eat too.. simin ate until the whole lower area below the nose all is oreo cheesecake smear.. LOL.. eat and luff n smile.. so cute!!! hhaha. hmm.. my relatives kept praising me.. praised n praised until i blush lor.. zzz. haha.. budden still.. a lil too sweet. bro say next time use dark chocolate instead of white. grandma (dad's side) say next time dun use oreo use fruits instead.. mum say "CHEESECAKE MEH? why i never eat till CHEESE?" LOL. owell.. glad they like it.. to me.. i still find that cheesecake very easy to feel "ni".. means... a lil sian tt type.. wadeva. duno how to explain. hurr. =/ bro's morning breakfast was a success too.. except for 2 fillet chao ta till rock solid black. LOL. oil too hot.. =/ thanks for the delicious n filling breakfast!!! =) suppose to help bro design shoe jus now.. after realtives left at about 10pm.. budden he say i do my shoe first.. and i end up finishing after midnight.. which is about 12.20am.. den he say he mayb buy new shoe tml after his bday celebration at a hotel for some dim sum buffet.. i designed my shoe (simple).. mum say "WHY PUT YOUR NAME?? WANT PPL TO NOE AR?" den bro n i say "ok de maa..." lol. aniwae.. i took pic of it.. buddennn... ppl shy lar.. 1st trial design on shoe. so.. yea. LOL. wait till i get used to it more often or such.. den i display or sth. aniwae.. the main reason is tt im lazy. =X tml 9am hafta wake up le. mum will be having viewing at 10.30am at duno where.. we booked for the dim sum thingy at 11.30am.. so.. hafta follow mum out tgt with dad n bro.. den go straight to the dim sum place.. after that.. bro say he wana go bedok walk walk and slack.. so i anithing.. since tml his bday.. i qian jiu him.. LOL. no lar.. i always qian jiu him de ok?? i love my bro de horr.. =P jus now once i finish designing n taking pic of my masterpiece.. the birthday boy came asking me to help him scratch his back.. knowing that i always seldom agree to help him scratch.... todae no choice... MUST scratch. den he suddenly talk abt "how good issit to have machines to help scratch"... blah blah blah.. haha. as usual. fantasize alot lar he. owell.. sigh.. tml having the mock exam of SPSS or sth lidat issit?? hmm.. shessh.. hope i can cope with it.. =/ SUPER DUPER looking forward to saturday.. meeting the girls... awwww~~ MUACK MUACKK MUACKKKKkk! duno why.. its always amazing.. even doh we might jus meet up last week.. i will still be missing them lots.. and wana see them soon!! its like.. not having enough of them. (AHEM! im straight!! =D) same goes for kl and sebas.. and of coz mata ong.. >.< so long nv see u le mata ongg... i miss u leh.. u got miss me not?? =X i noe u nv. nvm. HMPH! =P kidding lar. miss my tatami and lin lin asoo.. exams coming.. everyone busy.. =/ must find them go out with them and talk talk liaos.. even doh im youngest in the group (DUH! im youngest in class wad).. buddenn.. i still wana be a listening ear and help.. even doh i noe that some things are beyond my strength.. buddenn..... i reali wish to at least be there for u both.. may God send His Holy Spirit to guide both of you. LOVE LOVE!! =) hmm.. he msged me todae morning. abt "thanks. happy national day to you. too." haha. casual eh? he's reali good. not swaying and such. totalli like friend friend nth happen. owell........ yea. i duno why. budden jus now when my cousin jun hao n simin were playing roughly with my precious eeyore.... i felt very heartbreak.. coz partly its from him.. and partly eeyore plushie n me "tgt" quite long le.. and eeyore has been my listening ear and "shoulder" to lean on.. so... i was a lil heartbreak.. and den... NO IDEA WHY!!!! simin took the watch he bought for me and played around with it.. OUTTA SOOOOO MANY THINGS ON MY TABLE.. she took the WATCH. OUTTA SOOOO MANY THINGS ON THE BED... they took eeyore. sigh. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING??? WADS WRONG WITH MY LIFE??? EVERYONE IS TRYING TO POP BACK MEMORIES OF HIM TO ME!!!!!!! GOD!! WAD IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?? AM I DOING THE RIGHT THING OR NOT??? PLEASE!! TELL ME WAD TO DO... PLEASE.... [i delete almost all the pic of him in friendster. except for the one with bro coz bro say that pic was ok and he kinda like it. removed him from featured friends. moved his whole folder from personal to friends. had onli one pic of him in my hp even doh i was tempted to put more pic of him in my hp. changed my wallet into a pathetic card holder jus because i dun wana use the wallet given by him.. or rather.. i was afraid i would burst / spoil it. o well..] suddenly.. i feel like drinking Baileys.. duno why.. i dun feel that Baileys is THAT strong.. mayb coz i like milk.. thus.. the alcohol content isnt much of a kick to me.. buddenn.. its ex drinking Baileys.. and if selin noe im gonna drink Baileys to "drown" myself.. she gonna whack me and say "Baileys is alcohol. not milk. u 1 week drink finish 1L?! u siao bo?" hmm.. buddenn... i find that 1 week is kinda long le lehh.. i can drink faster de. budden coz of money wise.. couldnt buy too many / no one flying off. budden sept alot of ppl flying. at least got 2 (tamm n shell) will come back after 1-2weeks.. soo... at least they can get it for me. now its jus that i hafta SAVE MONEY!!! BAILEYS... my LOVE!! all time LOVE!! aawww.. ok lar. think i will stop here le.. im almost drooling.. -.-" chaoss.. gonna try to slp soon.. even doh not "xi guan".. budden no choice.. later waking up at 9am.. KEY SIAO!! not enough slp. zzz. BUAIS. goodbye my love.. wo de ai ren.... zai jian~ linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Thursday, August 09, 2007 @ 12:44 AM nil. hmm.. firstly.. HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO RONGZAN!! so so so sorry!!! i reali dino ur birthday is on the 8th aug.. PAISEH!!! >.< if not i sure make bday card for u de.. hehe.. budden hope u like the black forest cake!! =) secondly.. tamm n selin mood not very good todae.. i roughly noe abt selin's one.. budden not so use about tamm's one.. >.< kinda worried.. even doh my mood aso not so fantastic lar.. buddennn.. i think i fair better den them by a lil.. so... yea.. am worried bout them.. PRAY!!! for them. =) HUGS both of them.. thirdly.. its a joy to have alvin with us everytime on the journey back home.. todae i hardly luff. not even smile. budden with him around.. DAMN FUNNY. he can talk about crockroaches n lizards till me n michelle luff till pengs. LOL. i think ahseng shock sia.. suddenly i kept luffing.. =X aniwae.. hana aso got prob.. haiss!!! haven reali talk to her yet.. jus now on the way home she n siying sat down.. so din reali get a chance to talk to her when there is soooo many ppl in the train.. girl.. must JIA YOU kkae?? will catch up with you on friday.. so long nv meet you up at mrt oredi.. so sorry.. i still LOVE you.. MUACKk!! =) fourthly.. sumone COMPLAIN why i never write abt "HIM" in my previous post. hahah.. so here i am.. so no.4 HIM.. you are the special case.. a special friend.. coz i give u face sia.. LOL. no larr.. actuali i reali got think of writing abt u de.. budden if i add u.. (means no.4).. den like weird weird if i end at no.4.. so i din add u lor.. paiseh arr.. dun angry.. =P kkae lar. about no.4 HIM... ever since we became friends.. we like help each other here n there.. its reali nice lor.. even doh sumtimes we talk abt super sad n vexed stuffs.. budden still.. im glad i have u as my friend. haha.. sia lar. emo sia.. LOL.. ok lar.. i end here le. jia you for ur studies!! WHOOSH!! =) fifthly.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.. hurr. 42 years old le leh!!!! (duno wad to say liaos) ok.. may Singapore GST settle at 7% for as long as possible. LOL. =* my dear kl.. dun drink too much beer larr... 1L of Barons is a lil too much leh.. u like the KICK.. budden not too much kkae?? u seemed troubled n moody too. sigh. sorry todae lab ended late.. if not can meet u up earlier and chat.. tat time when im down u were there for me.. i wana do my part as a best friend too.. hugs!! will find one day go K with u.. esp ur birthday. i treat u makan Suki kkae? LOVE YOU BABE!! =) thanks tammie for sending me the Zhang Zheng Yue song.. super nice.. i can practically dance to the music.. jus like S.H.E.. the song like hip hop hype hype one... chao suang.. wooo hoooo!! thanks tammmiee.. MUACKk!! =3 todae.. 2 person talk abt no.1 him... i totally sian 1/2.. i noe they care.. buddenn... sumtimes i reali wish i had no contact with tt name.. thats the main reason why i haven read my Harry Potter last book. sigh. saw NS man booking out todae. for National Day thingy and such.. den on our way home.. michelle and ahseng talk abt NS aso... going back tt time... ahseng ask me abt HIM (not knowing tt he is HIM..).. p.s: if including ahseng.. den is 3 ppl whom talk abt HIM. den i a lil.. hais. everywhere i go.. it reminds me of himm.... ARGH! its not irritating.. but its sickening.. coz i wana forget.. i threw it outta my mind and ppl are popping it back into my mind!! RAWRRRR!! let it goooooooooo.... jus now in school waiting for rongzan. hana. sam. michelle. siying. mee yok. ahseng. alvin they all to come gather at canteen that time.. me selin n tamm were at the quadrangle there.. and it was dark and cool.. silent.. quiet.. reminds me of camp or chalet.. jus chilling around with friends and enjoy the day.. reali miss those days with my secondary sch friends.. and i reali wana have more of this kinda gathering.. may it be MDIS friends.. Vesire.. Sec sch friends or Sebas tt gang.. i reali love the night.. quiet.. cool.. stars.. breeze.. sound of sea waves.. aawwww.. [p.s: NO MOSQUITOES PLS!] yea... wad a nice atmosphere. all time fav. i wish... i wish... i wish... currently duno wad else to type or talk about.. suddenly my mind is blank. jus POOF! empty. messy. cant think. will stop here le. listen to music in labbie. having slight moodswings. duno why i have a feeling when im alone.. i wun be able to smile. suddenly i appreciate alvin's presence so much. haha. he's a nice guy aniwae. great arian. proud tat we are same "breed" LOL. tml will be a busy day. 9am wake up make breakfast with bro, for family. noon go NTUC buy cake ingredients. 1pm+ make the cake. 3pm+ help bro design his shoe. 5pm+ mass send the pic on rongzan birthday. 6pm+ get ready for NDP (tv).. 9pm+ prepare for dinner (or earlier) and den cake.. blah blah blah... guess thats all for now. eyes a lil tired.. see things blurr blurr one. off i go.. go msn liaos. haha. buais...... no matter wad msg i send him. he will never reply.. and im getting used to it... linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Tuesday, August 07, 2007 @ 11:36 PM time to forget and forgo. + pictures. went swimming with tatami todae. nice nice. sunburn at the back (mainly).. coz very itchy.. thanks selin for helping me put vaseline behind.. SHIOK AR!! =P had a great day with tamm.. she swam 40 laps. i swam 33 laps nia.. >.< budden not bad for a beginner hor. =P sia lar. when i heard that hana went jogging for 6 days last week.. i ji tao.. OMG!! wah seh.. everyone around me jian-ing fei.. and me still eating K-cube for breakfast and lunch. and den this week is a scary week. thurs morning bro making burger as breakfast. afternn i'll be making oreo cheesecake for my bro as birthday cake.. at night den can eat. den friday dad mum bro n me will be heading for aftnn dim sum buffet at a hotel for my bro's birthday (fri den is actual day). sat meeting babes for Pastamania (tts wad shell decided upon).. sun gg to my cousin's baby's 1mth birthday thingy.. another buffet. FISH MAN!! wah laoo ehh... -.-'' wan to control or slim down aso cannot lor. zzz. HATES!! nvm nvm. tml tamm cannot go swim or jog coz she down with flu n fever.. poor thing.. [sayang.. den i mayb gg to my house there the LOUSY and COLD gym.. (duno wad the ppl there thinking.. where got gym so cold one? around 19-20 deg leh!! summore is cannot adjust one.. zzz. dun like lar!!! RAWR.) or mayb go to the fitness corner do sit up and etc. or jus slack at home do assignments. never ending assignments.. zzz. guess its time to forget n forgo relationships.. may it be him. or him. or him. those are P A S T. PAST!!! may it be 1 day. 1 mth. 1 yr or more.. its the past. let it go... wait till im fully recovered.. wait till im fully prepared... wait till im fully confident that history wun repeat itself... till then shall i get attached yet again. yanlin. JIA YOU!! JIA YOU!! JIA YOU!! JIA YOU!! (for now im hyped up onli. hope it last.) to no.1 him.. i did not give up on you. you were the one who gave up on me. not giving me a chance to change.. jus simply dumped me jus lidat.... till the time u regret (or if u will).. its too late. i will still be ur friend. but never will we ever be tgt again... even doh i still love you (for now)... to no.2 him.. how time flies.. so long liaos.. yet.. because you were the first... i couldnt reali forget the times we had tgt. slightest things are like meals tgt or even staying back aft sch. etc etc etc.. haha. sounds and feels silly. however. time to let it go lar. even doh they will still be memories of mine. good ones i mean. =) jia you and takkare!! ^^ to no.3 him.. hmmm.. first impression of you is GENTLEMEN. =) super gentlemen. haha. and as a few of the girls who like u.. yea.. u're kinda cute. =) dun reali noe u yet.. even doh we are classmates for 1yr +.. lol. however.. im jus a small mei mei / small kiddo in ur eyes.. (coz if 1987 girls are too young for you.. den 1988 girls like me are worst).. oh well.. girls prefer older guys like around 3-5yrs apart u see.. (so cant blame me. =x) coz more mature and can be taken care of mah.. LOL. but oh well.. even doh u are aso a christian (bonus! haha) buddenn..... guess we'll jus let nature takes it path. stay gentlemen and talk more lar!! =) to tamm "xiao di".. LOL. DRINK MORE WATER AND HAVE MORE REST. NO ICECREAM FOR YOU!!! lychee martini.. lemon sorbet.. bla bla bla.. NONE OF THEM FOR YOU!! =* [lalala.. thanks for being FIERCE on me todae when swimming.. LOL. i was super slackkish right?? told ya.. LOL. i got a kinda nice sunburn.. hana say nice.. den ahseng say onli on tt day itself (when swimming or tan) den looks very fresh n nice. HAHA. tatami mus rest well kkae??? we go swim again next week.. this week National Day.. den friday i not free. PAISEHH!!! >.< next week mus swim at least once or twice.. if not exams coming liaos.. later selin scold. =* wheee... LOVE LOVE!! =P jus now cousin n bro send me "virus".. the same virus as last time.. about the photo album one. =.=" zzz. heng i not so gundu like my bro.. (coz he accept the VIRUS from my same cousin, whom send it to me.) his compt now scanning for the virus.. and my bro is now coughing and having flu.. poor thing.. hope he gets well soon.. =) random pics..  the young us.. VS THE NOW US....  BIG difference huh? =D  in airport toilet..  still in airport toilet..  at bugis junction.. (L-R: linn. jiao. hunn. jac. shell. shan.)  sisterhood. MUACK!!! .JPG) the hua chi face. WUAHAHHAA~~ xD  after welcoming the new yr (2007). taken at 6.30am in the morning.. (L-R: kl. sebas. yong. kp. linn.)  sebas. yong. linn n kl. photographer - kp.  sia lar.. act fierce ONLY~~ =X  cute siblings.. LOL. ^^  gee and thinner me (2 years ago)..  after Botak Jones (clementi).. tamm. yanyan. linlin. =) .JPG) the 5 of us.. aawww i miss fish n ngee ngee...  on tamm's 21st birthday celebration.. (L-R: alvin. ahseng. wilson. nelson. linn. sam. hana. wendy.)  bro climbing out from the letter "P"..  i tried as well. but hand too short liaoss. so i shouted for help instead. hurr. =*  childish but loving siblings. =D  cousin simin n me..  cousin huiling (aka baby huiling) and me.. okkiee... lemmi be ZHI LIAN for a while.. MUAHAHAHA.. =X  the fatty me!!! >.<  the aunty me!! o.O"  the grumpy me!!! -.-"  the simple me!!! =)  the cruel me!!! =X  the sporty me!!!  the sian me. *pouts*  the piggy me... looks REAL. =X  sidey view of me...  the shy me.. -vomits-  the slimmer and cuter me. -PUKES!-  the cheeky me.. hurr~~  the emo me.. hurr... .JPG) the "take for match-making-sake" me.. (JUST KIDDING!!!)  the irritated me.. RAWRR!!  the "bo chap-look" me..  the "act small girl girl" me.. =X  the silly me..  the day dreaming me..  the zhi lian me.. HAHA! =X %602.JPG) the young me...  the old me.. HAHA! look REAL lor. -.-" OK LAR.. thats the end liaos.. guess this is the first and the last time i will put pictures of myself in the blog. haha.. was damn bored lar. thats why put my lame pictures up. WUAHHAHA!! tts all.. chaoss~ wad goes around come around.. wad goes up must come down... K A R M A . . . linnLOVEyou♥ |