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Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 2:47 PM Nostalgic Memories Okie. This post is gonna be like... Kinda emotional and memorable to me? LOL. Coz Im currently in my secondary school's NPCC room typing this post. Yea yea.. Its NPCC room, not Red Cross room. (Coz I dun have the key to it? LOL.) Anyway, this decision was made in a hurry. Met up with Sebas yst with bro for bball, which failed coz too many ppl. In the end met up with Kl as well for dinner and den talk and slack and chat about. Then duno how come, suddenly say why not come to school tml or sth lidat.. And den I said, on lar! (provided I can wake up) =x But yup.. I did make it so that I woke up lor. At first I was so nervous I couldnt fall aslp.. Not even when its 5am.. =( Budden heng ar.. I managed to wake up at 11.45am lidat.. So I wasnt late lor.. Came into school.. First thing: nostalgic Second thing: feel outta place Third thing: lets see got wad changes Sign in at the security guard house and went to canteen straight.. Outta the 8 stalls, only 4 was open. (Coz 3 stalls are malay and they are fasting mah) Stall 4, 5, 6 and 8.. Bought burger from stall 4 aunty and talk to her a lil.. She rmb me lor! Talk and ask around how are each other etc... AND SHE EVEN HAVE ME, ONG & SEBAS DE OLD OLD OLD NEOPRINT on her cupboard lor!! *muahahaha!!* And den went to stall 6 to get cai4 fan4.. (boo hoo.. she dun rmb me lor..) And den went to stall 8 to get drinks.. (now there is no more diluted cheap drinks le.. only bottled water or packet drinks.. the uncle rmbs me budden his wife does not. sob sob..) AND BOTH STALL 4 AUNTY AND STALL 8 DEVENDOR SAY I FAT LE LOR.. ='( *sigh* After that we ta bao those food to NPCC room coz Sebas got the key.. He has alr set up his labbie and everything le lor. LOL. Eat snake. Tskx3.. =P Budden coz now those sec 4 express and sec 5 normal are having prelims so he can slack lar.. So.. yah. So we slack and talk in NP room.. Den talk talk a lil.. AND.... ..... ..... ..... Sebas took out sth... PHOTO ALBUMS!! Omg lar!! I flip and WUALA!! All those senoirs.. Like~ THO WEE LIANG! ... ... ... *BURST OUT LAUGHING* It was funny larr.. When he was soooo young lorr... LOL!! Then aso got Adrian, Jasper, etc.. And den saw Saravanan, young Kengling, young moh seng, young aisyah, etc etc.. Soooooo memorable.. Reminds me of the album Chingling post in fb de RedCross "forgotten memories".. Awww... Anyway, after those photo session.. Took labbie out to use. Wuahaha!! Tab into wireless@SG and went into fb and msn. xD Blog hop around.. Look look see see read read.. Went to Physics lab walk walk (since its Sebas de kingdom) LOL.. Wahh.. Ultra aot of memories lor... All those retort stand, weights, softboard, 1m long ruler, those desk, flask, etc etc etc... Awwww~~~ >< Reminds me of 4G and all of those practical sessions... =/ Now the NP room is currently half filled with NP members.. All the NCOs.. They are discussing strategies and events.. So fun.. LOL. Reminds me of last time Sharon and Sher Sher time... awww~~ Good old days.. OMG!! >< A lil weird coz like wear home clothes den nua at NP room... Like so... o.O" LOL. Kinda bring back happy and memorable memories lor.. =D Red Cross room never change much other than it look slightly spacious le.. NP room got new stuffs, RIFLES.. Nice lor.. Scouts room is still beside NP room, Art gallery, Music room, all are still the same.. Jus that the saddist thing is detention area has extra "bars" and tt really look like jail. =,=" Walked past the area near the canteen slope which reminds me of the OLDEN days man... The first detention area before it changed.. Oh man.. I still rmb my first detention was coz I forgot to bring tie.. OMGG!!!! >< LOL.. =D Then I told my bro and Sebas some memories I had with Kl when we were sec 4.. Then they stunned. LOL. Coz I perfect then still went to fourth floor there climb outta the other building de roof there.. WOW.. Now I think I climb again will still scared of heights.. Wakakaa~ =P Okie okie.. Its late le.. Its now about 3.15pm.. Gonna go off rather soon.. Going to west plaza to buy coffee (someone lor.. make me temptded) and den go WS.. Gonna take a look at Comic Connection to look for iCash and then decide to buy or not.. Coz there is IAH games event at Suntec from 17th - 20th sept which is tml till sunday.. So probably will be going down tml to see see.. Hehe.. =D Now DGN patching.. Wun have time to do patch and den login at 5pm.. Sad. Unless I go Mac or where to nua or sth.. Then tab into the network again.. Muahaha. =x Okie lar.. Gotta go le. I sian le. LOL. Chaoss~ P.S: Sebas went to help me find Mdm Su again.. 2nd try this time.. Hopefully can see her a while to say hi? LOL.. Moreover she is my form teacher for 2yrs ma.. Wuahahha.. OMG! Scarly she dun rmb me! *piang* [EDITTED] WOOHOOO!!!! I SAW MDM SU!! EVEN SAW MRS KHEW LORR!!! SO FUN!!! SO HAPPY!!! BOTH RMB ME!!!!!! xDD WOOHOOOOO~~~ HHHAAAAPPPPYYYYY... HAPPY!! HAPPY!! HAPPPPYYYY!!! xD <3 I change my side parting (now a lil weird and hafta use a clip to clip it in place) Reason: Coz Im balding. =O Shocking right.. Budden its true. Sad~ linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Thursday, September 10, 2009 @ 11:30 PM Utterly Disappointed Am feeling utterly disappointed and dumb. Even doh I know he has been lying and being boostful (which leads to the lying).. I cant help but have tt "hope" in me.. Ended up Im being "lied" too again. This time even doh there is no proof, its pretty obvious. Let me show you the scenerio and you will get it. Me: "hmm.. i walked past toshiba but like din see any familiar face" Him: "haha i just reach home haha went out to meet customer haha but got ppl tell me they saw you" Me: "oo.. reach home le o. hmmm.. huh? saw me? how can that be? woot." [ great. tio con, again. ] Him: "dar wear wad shirt o?" Me: "cannot say =p" [ am testing him actually ] Him: "lol why cannot say" Me: "nope. not dark colour. nv. just look around." [ turned off ] Him: "hmmm he say dark coloured de. you got ask for..?" Me: "oo.. hmm.. not me. hehe. i not so bold." Him: "hmmm then weird wor someone told me got a girl looking for me" Me: "hmm.. alot of ppl also walk around wor. owell.. u rest well at home ba.. =)" Him: "haha and they also say a girl tt keep looking around" [ c'mon lar. IT fair how many ppl sia.. can spot me? ] Me: "its okie. we over here for quite some time le. going off soon." [ not really budden im turned off ] Him: "no no wait there i come now. i drive super fast 5min. haha" Me: "pls drive carefully" [ am being polite ] Him: "drive carefully very slow de o" Me: "hmm.. drive with caution. dun rush. if there's fate, we'll meet" [ i duno why the heck i wrote tt ] Him: "wa hmmm then dar my bday party wan come?" Me: "erm, if you invite, i'll be there. =)" [ still being polite ] Him: "ok you are invited please keep this sms as invitation card haha formal enough? haha" Me: "oo.. okie. hmm.. do lemmi noe the date, time and venue. thx. =)" [ u can see im alr damn turned off ] Him: "ok" Yup. Thats enough said. So far, I auto tell XQ coz he is the "middle man" between me n him.. XQ nv really scold me coz he understands how I feel lar.. Hana happened to sms me and I jus felt I update her in case she "make fun" of me n him again.. I din tell sebas or bro coz kp was there with us at comex.. To say the truth, my whole heart dropped. Even doh I knew it long ago there would not be blossom. But I just cant help it. Now all I can wish for is, my friends around me do not.. I repeat. DO NOT ask me things abt him anymore. As for dgn, play will still play ba. Just not as much I guess? It doesnt mean we cant be friends anymore. Budden this kinda thing, I cant continue liking him despite this flaws. This flaws itself is too much for me. Lying is sth I cant take it. Because I will not have thrust in him. If I dun even have a basic thrust, how am I going to be with him? I can never do that. No one can. Unless he change. Unless... he change. Im not saying thats not possible even doh J alr told me since young he's lidat. But for me, all I can do is not to sink deeper. He is a nice guy. I dun deny that. Just that this bad habit and flaw of him is killing him. And he dun even seem to realised that. Thats sad actually. I wonder if anyone ever told him about this flaws. Coz if there isnt, then its even more sad. Because that means that no one even cared if he have the slightest chance to change. And that meant, he has no true friend. Duno wad else to say le. The only happy thing is that: 1) Sat is Shell's BP le 2) Sunday I will getta see one of my guld mates at IT fair (he told me his booth) 3) Wed, 16th, getta have dinner with Ah Seng, Michelle and Hana 4) Thurs, 17th, Shell is 21. 5) Sat, 19th, overnight stay in hotel (booked and paid by Shell) 6) Mon, 21st, should be meeting Tamm & Selin for a meal or including movie. =) Thats all I can look forward to, I guess. *hurr* If Im not a retard, why did I 心动 when I noe he's sucha person? linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Thursday, September 03, 2009 @ 3:26 PM Stumbled Upon Was blog-surfing randomly and saw this on Kei's blog. Found it to be interesting and wise at the same time so I decided to spread the love (after asking permission from him de hor) =P Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio. "To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.. It is the most-requested column I've ever written." My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more: 1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. 2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. 3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone... 4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. 5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. 7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. 8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it. 9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. 10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. 11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. 12. It's OK to let your children see you cry. 13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shoudn't be in it. 15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks. 16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. 17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. 18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. 19.. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. 21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, save it for a special occasion. Today is special. 22. Over prepare, then go with the flow. 23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. 24. The most important sex organ is the brain. 25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. 26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?' 27. Always choose life. 28. Forgive everyone everything. 29. What other people think of you is none of your business. 30. Time heals almost everything. 31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. 33. Believe in miracles. 34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did ordidn't do. 35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. 36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young. 37. Your children get only one childhood. 38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved. 39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere. 40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back. 41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. 42. The best is yet to come. 43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 44. Yield. 45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift." Credits to Kei What I felt after reading was like.. "Woo.. Inspiring and true." and then I thought of posting it in my blog to share and WALA! here it is. =) These few days have been busy. The weather is being naughty. Later going Jiao's house to bake choco chip cookies with hunn den tml Jiao's house agn for Shell's banner. =) Sat and Sun currently nth on yet. Hafta gt my fat ass on the chair and start mugging for GECC man.. Currently everytime I open up the book I see the words "sleepy.. tired.. dragonica.. msn.. dramas.. just go to bed.. tml den study.." It sucks man. =/ *sigh* Mr M invited me n bro to a yatch trip with him on board sometime soon. I told him I will ask my bro n consider, but in fact, Im kinda scared. Which reminds me, Ong say he wana "accompny" me.. LOL. Mention it to my bro this morning. Before I tell him wad I felt, he said "weird". Bingo! Thats the word man. Wad Mr M said was: "you are the first I invited o.. I haven invited anyone yet." Then I ask how come nv invite his ex before, and den he say: "she dun like. she is a beach gal but not a sea gal." To say the truth, I've always like gg outta sea to enjy the sea breeze etc. Budden coz its like.. I still duno him so well.. So...... =/ Anyway, If he ask agn den will see how lor. Anyway my bro holiday so PROBLY...... *see how lar* [ A small update for my own ref ] Yst I had a chat with a "senior" abt him. What that "senior" said was: 1) I actually mnanaged to find out his weakpoint 2) His weakpoint is boastful and add spice to words 3) Currently its only online so keep it normal, dun put feelings into it. And that made me think twice, thrice about smsing him and meeting him. LOL. Owell.. Will see how lar. Im so not rushing into things now. Till then! P.S: Who knows? The first time Im gonna see him is Guild Outing, BBQ. Lol. Bye all! =) linnLOVEyou♥ |
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Tuesday, September 01, 2009 @ 2:12 AM Whatever People whom have been reading my blog should noticed that my blog is as good as dying or DEAD. I rarely blog about anything anymore. And the main reason is yet again the same. My life is a routine. Nothing much has occured. And thanks to being a girl.. Im having some syndromes. Anyway, that causes me to have alot of thoughts and those thoughts are not so bright and happy. Nevertheless, I thank God. Because at least these few days have been fun-filled despite being damn busy & tired. Few stuffs are: - Friday. BBQ at my place was a success despite Liang, Candy, Jason (whom said he wanted to come) couldnt make it. The rest were able to come. Everyone was so busy no one took pic.. =,=" Anyway, tian gotta leave early.. >< Sorry for asking you help with the setting up of fire.. And thanks for coming.. xD Vesire FINALLY (like coming 8yrs f/s) come to my house for the FIRST time. Wuahahah.. KL stayed overnight and it was kinda cozy yet weird. I like it when we laid side by side looking up at the ceiling and talk. Wadsoever come to our mind we jus talk. And we chatted till 5am+ coming 6am before falling aslp. The next day, I hafta reach Shell's house at 1pm (supposedly) budden failed to do so coz too tired. Nevertheless, even doh Im late, Im still the first to reach. =,=" P.S: KL went swimming & suana while I was still slping.. OMG la. She even woke up at 8am+ to read storybook beside me.. Zzz. Ended up when my dad woke up, he woke me up and say KL is gone. I replied with a graunt.. And den after a while he came in and say "KL even wake up earlier than you lor. HAIYOH." And I din even reply.. I WAS SO DARN TIRED LA. Zzz. P.P.S: Still, I like it. I can smile when I think abt the overnight despite being v tired. - Saturday. Went to Shell's house to help her with the banner stuffs and deco. After that went to airport to see mum, dad, aunt & uncle donald, dua pek & dua mm off to HK, Macau. After that went to TM to meet Liang & Shell for "The Proposal". Nice movie. Hiliarious, sweet & touching. - Sunday. A day of boredom. Rained. Tamp bball court got the 7th month that stage. SK bball court no net. Rained agn. Sebas sick. We woke up late. Bored. Played DGN. Did alot of GuildQuest (gq). Din train much. Bored. Whole day was pure boredom. Urgh! =/ - Monday. Went to Shell's house to helped out with the banner agn. Took some ultra lousy pic (in my opinion) coz I was kinda tired coz the previous day I din manage to have a good night slp budden still woke up and when over asap. Did the draft layout, the petal layout, cutting of petals, taking some pic, help to hold the banner while Shell iron it, cut up the excess cloth, sew the cloth inside out (really v WOO-ed by our craftmanship, Shell! Haha!) and then by then, coming 4pm le so we chop chop left house. Went to JP and WALA!!! It changed so much I got "lost" inside. =,=" Anyway, next time when Im free Im so gonna go there and walk every level every shop see see.. Then probly meet Hunn, Shan & Liang for dinner or sth lidat. xD Went to surprise Hunn & Shan for Teacher's Day thingy since they are gonna be future teachers.. In the end 1) we went to the wrong direction and 2) they were too hungry so in the end we bumped into them halfway towards their hostel room.. Nevertheless, they were both shocked & happy. Thanks Liang for the effort you put in despite its a lil of a flung. LOL. =p Went to canteen 2 to eat and I like their western (as always).. Thanks Shan, Hunn & Liang whom treated us for the dinner. =) After seeing Hunn & Shan's hostel room, the more I have the urge to study in NTU or NUS (as long as I can stay in hostel). I have always wanted to stay in a hostel since secondary school. I know its kinda dumb coz 1) away from family. 2) hafta be darn independent. 3) kinda dangerous.. Budden I think Im old enough to learn this kinda things myself. Told bro about it when I got home and we kinda "agree" that I 23 den go in whereas he's 21 by then and he go NS.. So we kinda wun miss each other so much. LOL. Budden the worrisome part is my grandma.. =( Will see how till then. When Hunn & Shan mentioned that Sharon studies in NTU, I really miss her suddenly. As in, very much. So far, only she, Aisyah and Ron will give me that kinda "yearning".. Probly coz they are all my long long long friend since pri sch? And is those, since pri sch jiu good friends de lor.. =( I miss them. (OK. I noe Ron is a lil "wrong" & "awkward" budden.............) P.S: If Im in the mood probly I will mention more later on. P.P.S: About Ron I mean. P.P.P.S: Or myself lar. Relationship thingy. Tml. Plan was FD4 with kl. Duno still on. I din cfm with her. Am actually kinda having itchy throat.. Cough here & there when I got home & my bro was stunned coz I seldom get sick. LOL. Owell.. I think I will be ok soon de lar. xD P.S: Bro mentioned playing bball tml at tamp. Duno the stage still there not. I wana play too. 3weeks nv touch ball le. OMG. Now that I count.... WTF. 3 weeks? WTH AM I DOING.. Wed. Welcome home mum & dad. Other than that. No plans yet. Only left with Shell to get to us if Friday can do her banner at Jiao's house after working hours. Mayb I should get down to study GECC if not I sure GG lar. Alr taking Subpaper still so relax. kns. Thurs. Probly gg Jiao's to help Hunn with her baking. Relax and chill a lil or sth. Den see how lor. Nth much. Fri. Yet to be cfm. See how things goes. The Proposal is a nice movie. I might wana catch it agn. Depends. A few ppl whom I miss (not according to pref) - Sharon - Aisyah - Ron (OK. Stop the "woooo~~") - Joce - Huiting - Mr M (cant really count since its not v realistic) - Gee (so much so if I bump into them I wana give them a hug) - Shuu (so much so if I bump into them I wana give them a hug) - Tamm (so much so if I bump into them I wana give them a hug) - Selin (so much so if I bump into them I wana give them a hug) - Ngee (so much so if I bump into them I wana give them a hug) - Hana (not so of a hug lar. coz I noe she sure scold me say why nv contact her =,=") - Azlinda - Khai - Stephanie (HOW ARE YOU LE?? I MISS YOU~~ ><) - Yi Cao (not realistic too coz he's just an eye candy) - That pri sch friend (the one at Vincent's bday pt) This, I noe some will be gasping or having the =O expression now. I gotta mention this: its because of his action he did. NOT EXACTLY MISS HIM. IS THAT MY MIND KEPT HAVING HIM FLASHING HERE N THERE. AND FOR WADSOEVER REASON.. I DUNO WHY!! P.S: Actually I still feel kinda disgusted & shocked =,=" [ Thats all for now ] Even doh Im kinda tired and stoning now.. Probly jus summarized a lil about wad I think and feel about my "love life" thingy. Those who are interested can stay and continue reading. Those who are not interested can click on the top RHS "X".. =) PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS, 1) ITS PERSONAL 2) TO STOP PPL FROM SAYING THINGS TT I DUN THINK IS REALISTIC 3) LAUGH ALL YOU WANT, WHOEVER YOU ARE. I DUN CARE! - I dun see myself in a r/s so soon My opinion: Dun wana rush into things and get hurt agn even if I yearn for that lovey dovey feeling. - If Ron were to ask me back, I might not say yes. My opinion: Not being "play hard to get" but rather, its fear, the phobia. Of being dumped whenever and however. Whatever the stupid reason. Again. - Mr M gave me his no. From wad one of my sisters say, the way he ask me to sms him is to get my no. in an indiret way. She also mentioned that since Im interested in him, I should grab the chance/opportunity and just sms. My opinion: I dun think I will msg him so soon. Probly I will. But not now. Wana observe more. If he is the one, he is the one. If he isnt, even if he slips away, then better now than later when I sink too deep. - Self-esteem is a major prob for me even doh my close sister say its normal budden still, jus go for it. My opinion: I noe.. Budden, easily said den done. I've always have a prob with my.... size. weight. wadever. So.... It aint easy. For me. At least. You wun understand. Owell... Inferior is the word for my feelings. Noobshyt is the word for my actions. [ That's all for now ] Almost all my close friends & my bro say the same thing. I DON'T FOCUS/HAVE ABSOLUTE CONCENTRATION BECAUSE IM EASILY DISTRACTED. That scuks. Like totally. Goodbye! Its the thought that counts.. (But some ppl just feel its dumb. Sigh~) linnLOVEyou♥ |